we are a part of them

our angels who have passed, i think ive figured why we get so frustrated at things people say....  its because OTHER PEOPLE see things as earthly OR heavenly. there is a distinct line. we are on this side, and those who have passed over on on that side. they see our angels as GONE from this world, and gone from US. and its THAT what hurts or irritates us. ...... you see, i think we are in a kind of NEW PLACE in our lives.  we ARE EARTHLY, of course we are. we are with our family who love and need us, and whom we love. we are here to do what we have to do, to help our loved ones on their journey, to do good deeds, and to do all we can each our own little part that can make this world a better place. ...... at the same time, this other weird thing has happened to us. when our child passed, its not as if they LEFT US, or disappeared. i for one, definately immediately lost my human instinct fear of death. WHY?? because its obvious that i am ATTACHED!  its not DEATH that is the thing. it is another plane of life, it is another part of life itself, call it heaven, afterlife, a place where souls abide. call it what you want.... it is nevertheless, i feel, a kind of "pathway", do you know what i mean? and we have ACCESS to that pathway. we cannot get as far as where our angels are and hence we are asking them for signs etc, but we DEFINATELY have some kind of access to the path to where they are. we can kind of GO THERE, if you can identify? we can kind of access it and although we cant always SEE them there, we can FEEL them. other people look at us in pity, think we are holding onto hopes and stuff... .... but we are not saying it to try and convince them.  they CANNOT understand it because they cannot SEE it. they have no ACCESS to that path, to that special path, bridge, passage way. it is so alive, and we can FEEL our angels there. they pass up and down to us, and we pass up and down to them. therefore we are CONNECTED to them. other people would NEVER understand this.  (in fact i wouldnt try to explain it - they'd probably look at each other and think ive gone dilly!) but thats how i think it is, and i wanted to share that with you.  yes i long for my jessy, and to hold her, and love heryes, sometimes i feel sick and want to vomit, and that is the earthly part of us that is suffering the loss of the physical and verbal bondbut then we have the times when we feel strong, and i hold that those are the times we've journied a bit through the "tunnel" and we're feeling better because we know they are okay. i think also that sometimes thats why we feel a bit "disconnected" from people, and things here. because we've travelled a bit up the path to " peek up the corridoor" and feel at peace cos we were shown - in an unearthly way - by FEELING - that they are okay. they communicate to us through this tunnel, by sending love, and something so awesome, no one could possibly understand. so we are HERE on earth, to do things, to love, to be loved, to achieve for G-d and for our angels.And we also have been shown ANOTHER maybe tunnel dimension, that we can SEE, that we can GO INTO. THAT IS WHY WE KNOW, so strongly, that our angels are not GONE, but that they are just in a new dimension.we are blessed that G-d has allowed us to see this.  i dont know if there is one mom who has not, at some point, made comment that one day we will be re-united with our angels.  i dont believe its a HOPE, or a dream. .... i believe its an absolute knowledge that we have. nor have i detected an inkling of fear of death from any of us moms. WE HAVE CHANGED. a part of our human instinct has changed.  that is what i feellove jan