ok, im back

well, im back again. wow two times in one day, thats a record for me. just joined a new group, its called healing together. i love the name. i had no idea there were so many that i didnt even know about. im still feeling very down im dreading calling boyfreind. its the first day without my cable. oh well, ill get over it. called and put in motion the paperwork for dissablaty, like im ever going to get it. but i feel like i did something. sstill have to wash my hair. i would just love to get it all cut off. i wouldnt even care if i was bald, im pretty thin allready. guys can do it, why not me?of course my stomack hurts as ussuall. i just know ive given myself a nice little ulser. oh well, what ya ganna do? guess ill go try to clean this pigpen up, then ill get back on if i can before son gets home... ok, later...