harray cool weather finnally

well, the seasons are changeing finnally. this is the first day i didnt have to use ac. im so fat now that im hot all the time, not just the flashes. im going to my cousins house tommorow night for a poker game. i hope i dont drink too much. i get so nervoiuse around everyone, even family. having a lot of stomack problums lately. taking anti nausia pills every day now. so now im addicted to them also. oh great, another crutch. ive gained so much weight. ive never been this big ever. even wene pregnant. my aunt wants to start walking. i realy want to,but i keep finking excuses. going to try again tommorow. i got out of house today for a while to go to aunts. couldnt wait to get back. i have to start getting out and fast. oh well, tommorow is another day. i said that yesterday.... ok, moore later so glad its finnaly cool maybe i wont melt after all. mooore later if i can get on...