i feel so alone today

ya know, for having a pretty big family, i feel very alone. went to the counseler yesterday. it was the first time. i had no idea what to say or do. im going back next monday. once a week i think. i almost did cry wene i started talking about my life and the way my son has turned out. i had to hold back, im realy scared if i start i wont ever stop. im relay feeling very alone in my own head. i know the world is going on around me, but i cant participate. im very scared. seems like im not making very good progress. boyfreind was here yesterday, all he ever wants to talk about is how my son isnt koing what he is supposed to and not working enough. im realy getting tired olf heraing it. now he says well you havfe to get a job somewere, anything. ya easier said than done... moore later...