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I went to church today for the first time since i was 20. I was the one sitting in the back, by myself trying to not be noticeable. The congregation members at this church were too friendly and...

Well at least I can say that this seems like it is going to be a "frindly" divorce. I mean neither one of us is angry. We both are very saddened by it, but at least there is no finger pointing or...

Ok, so its been a REALLY long time since I've worked on this here, but here it goes. Today I was at the therapist, and we have been going through what happened to me. I verbalize it, and she writes...

I skipped a day. My crazy work schedule again.Now I'm at a real loss. I wrote about most of it last time. For completely unrelated reasons, my parents got a divorce about a month later. Because of...

The assignment: Write about your trauma for 20min a day nonstop for 4 days. Writing down the first sentence is always so hard, so I will start out like this. Easy, calm statements that mean nothing....

We were in the process of moving to a house out in the country. It was the last house of three on a small, dead end, gravel road. The property actually belonged to my Grandmother on my Mom's side....

this is my journal. This is my journal. This is my journal. I keep telling myself this so that I wont feel odd about not making sense with what I write. I am writing this for me. Every action I take...

Fear. The word instantly brings certain scenarios to mind, but there different for different people. scientifically speaking fear is a reaction designed to help keep us safe from harm. We all should...

Sometimes i feel like, figuratively speaking, that i walk into my mind and all I see is chaos and mass destruction. "Things to do" lists along with music files, memories of sexual abuse, and thoughts...

I asked the question, and i find that i cannot satisfactorily answer it. I mean lets start of with the basics. Food; shelter; clothing. Ok, you can survive with that, but you get that much in prison....

"I'm outta money outta hope it looks like self destruction Well how much more can we take with all of this corruption"From Molly Hatchet's, "Flirtin' With Disaster" yep that's me alright. I know a...

There are so many things that i need to do... Writing more often here is one of them. While writing wont "change" anything external in my life, perhaps it will help to change something internal....

I am not sure what to even talk about, its been so long since ive posted anything. Non SA issues are my wife is back in the hospital. She had had back surgery, which went well. She was home for a...

when will it end? WHEN? I mean really? My wife is bed ridden, we already were having marital issues. They have gotten worse. I am forced into filing for bankruptcy, I can't see how we can continue...

The day i wrote my last journal entry, i was determined to get back into writing them on a regular basis again. well... the next day i get a letter in the mail that says that i'm being sued by a...