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Moved my progress bar from 10% to 5%. I feel like i am sliding down again. Maybe i'll get robbed and shot tomorrow, and i wont have to worry about anything anymore.

I just occured to me that coming to grips with what happened and getting rid of the shame of it is only part of the battle that i(we) face. All of those "bad" copeing mechanisems that i used, i still...

I've been talking more. Ecspecialy to my wife. She seems to be a little happier nowadays. I've been trying to write more on DS and make new friends. I still have a lot of trouble drifting "away"...

I asked the question, and i find that i cannot satisfactorily answer it. I mean lets start of with the basics. Food; shelter; clothing. Ok, you can survive with that, but you get that much in prison....

"I'm outta money outta hope it looks like self destruction Well how much more can we take with all of this corruption"From Molly Hatchet's, "Flirtin' With Disaster" yep that's me alright. I know a...

There are so many things that i need to do... Writing more often here is one of them. While writing wont "change" anything external in my life, perhaps it will help to change something internal....

I am not sure what to even talk about, its been so long since ive posted anything. Non SA issues are my wife is back in the hospital. She had had back surgery, which went well. She was home for a...

when will it end? WHEN? I mean really? My wife is bed ridden, we already were having marital issues. They have gotten worse. I am forced into filing for bankruptcy, I can't see how we can continue...

The day i wrote my last journal entry, i was determined to get back into writing them on a regular basis again. well... the next day i get a letter in the mail that says that i'm being sued by a...

Listen to these three songs in this order. Listen to them from the viewpoint of how sexual abuse hase impaceted our lives. Then tell me if, at the end, you are not sobbing. I dont know. These songs...

I need to write. I want to wirte. My head is empty. My life is not. My life is full of problems. I just cant seem to cut a break with anything. I am goin to have to file for bankruptsy as a last...

just to let everyone know;I'm just starting to get back. Mardi Gras season had been like 18 to 20 hr days back to back to back. My wife got pnemonia, (she is on antibiotics and at home now), and we...

i'm feeling VERY on edge. VERY. It probably has a lot to do with the fact that i yet again forgot my meds this moring. Just realized my error, and just took them. For now however.... hands shaking...

I just read my past entries on this goal. While i do not feel asthough I have made any substatual progress, I am certainly not in the bottomless depths of depression anymore either. Do to that i will...

 Here is another atempt at writing an emotional letter to my abuser. I'm trying very hard to feel feelings.I heard a song today from a band called Apocalyptica. The song was called, "I am not...