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I really wanted to journal yesterday / today, but i seem to always running out of time. Yesterday was good all the way untile we got home. Complicated non-happy stuff. I'll say more later... if i can...

Every time you hear that song or see the three blind mice in a cartoon, they always seem to be doing just fine. The thing that i notice is that there is never just one of them, they are always...

My wife got some good news two days ago. She has been offered a job at the Humane Society of Louisiana. She could not remember the job title, but its the Director of (Coordinating volenteers, and all...

nothing in my life is good. Its all my fault i know, so i can't really complain about it. I just cant seem to make anything work right. i think that my wife is going to divorce me. I can't afford to...

I got very little sleep last night, but the good new is, is that i remembered to take my meds toady. Hopefully today will be better that yesterday. I'll see if i can manage to stay awake for the...

ugh!! writing this journal every day whether i want too or not is getting hard. right now i just feel sleepy. I can barley think. i supose that today was a good day. I finaly finished my DVD edits....

I feel like i have this huge cloud over me with lightning bolts ready to go. Sometimes i get the urge to just slit my throat. Instead of having daydreams about being succesful, or having a great day,...

Ok, here is my second journal entry. Today wasn't a real horrible day. I onlhy had mild suicidle thoughts. I've been reading alot where some people who are depressed self-injure as a means of...

It seems that almost everyone who knows of my problems has suggested to me that i should write a journal every day. I've never been much on that sort of thing, but i'll give it a try. I think i...

Moved my progress bar from 10% to 5%. I feel like i am sliding down again. Maybe i'll get robbed and shot tomorrow, and i wont have to worry about anything anymore.

I just occured to me that coming to grips with what happened and getting rid of the shame of it is only part of the battle that i(we) face. All of those "bad" copeing mechanisems that i used, i still...

I've been talking more. Ecspecialy to my wife. She seems to be a little happier nowadays. I've been trying to write more on DS and make new friends. I still have a lot of trouble drifting "away"...

Today was not so good. I am feeling very depressed, and all i want to do is go to sleep for a very long time. like maybe a month or two.I work in the convention buisness. I set up and operate the...

In the past few months i've had a LOT of financial problems. I had been an independent contractor in the video production buisness, and work was getting harder to come by. I was actually two months...

I worked up the nerve and called my friend. What a releif!!