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OMG!! i think the doc got it right this time!!! I just got my RX filled this morning and took my meds, and now i am feeling focused and...GOOD. Wow! that feels great!!! I hope this feeling lasts... I...

Ok, now in order for this to make since please read my very first journal entry. http://www.dailystrength.org/peopl... I hope this link works, if not let me know and i'll just post the whole entry...

I just received my very first, "just get over it", and it came from my Step-Father. He has helped my Mom raise me and my brother since i was 7. All of that stuff i said about educating people about...

Ok, i have been writeing more, and i think i have more ups than downs so this should be desrving of an increas in the old progression bar. Just my silly way of rewarding myself.oh when i wrote this...

Suicide, self-harm, self-blame, porn addiction, self sabatoge, these things are a part of me, a part of my life. They have crept in silently like mold behind a sheetrock wall, lurking causing damage...

Well i found out this weekend that my Mom had been in the hospital for the past few days. She lives in VA so i could not visit, but her bloodpressure dropped real low, and the initial tests indicated...

I really wanted to journal yesterday / today, but i seem to always running out of time. Yesterday was good all the way untile we got home. Complicated non-happy stuff. I'll say more later... if i can...

Every time you hear that song or see the three blind mice in a cartoon, they always seem to be doing just fine. The thing that i notice is that there is never just one of them, they are always...

My wife got some good news two days ago. She has been offered a job at the Humane Society of Louisiana. She could not remember the job title, but its the Director of (Coordinating volenteers, and all...

nothing in my life is good. Its all my fault i know, so i can't really complain about it. I just cant seem to make anything work right. i think that my wife is going to divorce me. I can't afford to...

I got very little sleep last night, but the good new is, is that i remembered to take my meds toady. Hopefully today will be better that yesterday. I'll see if i can manage to stay awake for the...

ugh!! writing this journal every day whether i want too or not is getting hard. right now i just feel sleepy. I can barley think. i supose that today was a good day. I finaly finished my DVD edits....

I feel like i have this huge cloud over me with lightning bolts ready to go. Sometimes i get the urge to just slit my throat. Instead of having daydreams about being succesful, or having a great day,...

Ok, here is my second journal entry. Today wasn't a real horrible day. I onlhy had mild suicidle thoughts. I've been reading alot where some people who are depressed self-injure as a means of...

It seems that almost everyone who knows of my problems has suggested to me that i should write a journal every day. I've never been much on that sort of thing, but i'll give it a try. I think i...