I am not sure what to even talk about, its been so long since ive posted anything. Non SA issues are my wife is back in the hospital. She had had back surgery, which went well. She was home for a week, went back to the docs office and got the staples taken out. No problems. She gets home, a couple of hours later her temp shoots up to 104.3 F and she starts vomiting. Ambulance ride to the ER, and she has been in the hospital ever since. 9 days total now. When she gets home she will have to have interveinous antibiotics every day for 6 weeks. Of course i am at the hospital as much as i can be. I go to work, go home to feed the dogs, then go to the hospital and spend the night. Rinse and repeat every day. Oh and insert bringing my son to and from work, and track practice in there. Both cars broke down. I was able to afford the parts to fix one of them. The other one just sits in the driveway getting neglected. Oh yea, and no money with lots of bills. Im in bankruptsy due to my failed buisness.
I tell all of this to my new psychiatrist. ( i did not like my old one because he just did not "seem" to care. I have to believe that he did, but he just did not show it very well.) She tells me, with the amount of stressors in my life she would have probably recomended an anti depressent drug, but add in the SA and the attemtp at suicide last year, she called it a critical need for me to get on anti depressents. So now i am... again.... ok i will confess that i did not switch psychiratrists the right way. I stopped going to mine, before i even started looking for another. I let my RXs run out, and i was without for about 2 months. Bad bad times.
Cant finnish this journal entry like i would want to. I have to go so i am going to go ahead and post this unfinnished.