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- So there I was- enjoying my day, watching tv, getting ready to go get school supplies for next week and BAM! The blues hit. Now I just want to curl under my blanket and cry and I keep picturing myself cutting. I took my Prozac before bed last night...
- I spent the holidays with my mum and decided to tell her about my disorder. Finally. I wasn't so sure how much to tell her so initially I only told her that I'm in therapy and on ADs and that I'm bipolar. She already knew the bits and pieces of BP...
- Does anyone else get nauseous when they take Fluo? This is my 6th week on it and the last two pills had my tummy rocking and rolling. Should I get used to this?
- Sigh. I wanna go home like NOW. She's contracted a virus that has killed a number of people out here who have other illnesses. Since she's severely anemic I'm beyond worried. We were just talking and I was trying to convince her to go to the doctor...
- Guess who's getting worse? Meee. Sigh. Just got back from my tdoc appt and we redid the 'you draw, I interpret' activity. Seems what he interpreted shows that I've taken a few steps backwards. One drawing was 'pretty psychotic', the other revealed...
- http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2014/12/09/bipolar-brain_n_6290238.html?utm_hp_ref=twAccording to this the type I brain looks different from the type II brain. No mention was made of the cyclothymic brain though :-( It's often overlooked in bipolar...
- I'm still trying to learn as much as I can about my disorder. I'm cyclothymic. I just read something that says after a while, if it isn't properly treated, cyclothymia could develop into BPI or II. Was that the case for any of you?
- This is what I was saying to myself as I tried not to trash my room to find my Xanax. I stopped being myself during an exam. Well that's the only way to describe it. I felt like I floated out of my body and someone else took over. And a dumb someone...
- I was pretty hypo this weekend. Went to get groceries and bumped into my housemate's friend. We went to the supermarket and my hypo took over like you wouldn't believe. I was running around the supermarket, jumping over stuff, sitting on the floor,...
- So we shot the short film yesterday- the movie is called Undone. I'm playing the main character- Willow Gold (she's BP I). It was emotionally draining because it's so personal. Most of it came from my diary and there were parts where I stopped...
- I was up til 3 a.m. bleaching my hair. Rather spontaneous but I love the results. Anywho, when I finally went to bed I had a pretty bad dream about a DS member- Rosiestorm. Has anyone heard from her lately? I went through the more recent posts but...
- I think a while back I made a post about how my sex drive disappeared and I was now finding even the thought of sex repulsive. Well my bf came over yesterday and we were just hanging out until the hormones took over and we started making out. Well...
- Been listening to twerking songs most of today... yesterday. Whatever. Who here can back that ass up? I'm far too tiny to have anything in the trunk worth shaking but man is it fun to pretend :-D
- I've always been confused about my childhood due to my mind or my subconscious blocking certain memories and replacing them with more pleasant but much less factual 'memories'. When discussing my childhood in therapy I made mention of this. Now it's...
- http://www.healthyplace.com/blogs/borderline/2014/11/journalisms-dirty-little-secret-and-why-it-matters/I found this pretty interesting especially since I'm in media.