iam30113
Status: New year, new decisions
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- Seems it's hiding and it has no intention of returning anytime soon which I kinda don't mind. Beats being hypersexual and wanting to jump random people all the time. Of course the fact that I'm not interested in sex or being sexual is worrying. I'm...
- Lately I've been really having a go at my hair- like I will sit for ages just yanking and tugging and tearing it out. And there, I just started again. I can't even tell if I'm getting patches cos of how thick and kinky my hair is and the fact that I...
- I think all of us have considered suicide at one point or another. I don't know if anyone has ever read the book or seen the movie 13 Reasons Why. It's basically about this teenage girl who commits suicide but before she did she made tapes detailing...
- It's been a year since my first therapy session. I still remember how hard it was for me to go in. I used to sit for hours in the lobby of the health centre, too scared to make an appt, too scared to go home. And the 'screening'. Oh boy, I was a...
- Had a nice long chat with my pdoc last week and what do you know- she finally prescribed me anti-depressants. Ironically I'm not feeling remotely depressed right now so I don't need to take them just yet. I wish she had done this two weeks ago or...
- My tdoc tries to get me think of the ways cutting- that's my way of self harming, will affect different aspects of my life like my relationship or my job. Has it interfered with your lives? As it is now I just get weird looks because of it. I dread...
- I made plans this weekend to hang out with a friend at his place, got there and shortly after his sorta girlfriend called to say there was a party she had two tickets to and would he like to go. Of course he said yes. I was in no mood to be at home-...
- I barely slept Tuesday night. I was a buzz buzz buzzing. Sigh.That led to me being totally drained last night. So much so that I fell asleep two seconds after lying down. Usually a good thing but I have a paper due in a few hours that I should have...
- How on earth am I back here already? I thought I was out of the tunnel for at least a week but no, here I am again. Sigh. Why do I bother hoping for a break from this?
- https://kickass.to/the-mindful-way-through-depression-freeing-yourself-from-chronic-unhappiness-pdf-t7332046.htmlFor those who wish to read it.
- Went on a walkathon hosted by a group trying to reduce the stigma against mental illnesses. Got a pin for answering a question correctly after surviving the three laps. Yaay me. I think my hypomania is gone, in a normal place now. Slept most of the...
- Who wants to come dine with me? You must be hungry after all that dancing we've been doing.
- Put yo dancin shoes on, we're going dancing tonight. We''re going to sway and move to the beats, let the sound caress us and speak to us through us heal us soothe us drive us upward. higher higher higher higher let go and flyyyyyyy and taste the...
- I'm going down the rabbit hole. Not sure if that's the best way to refer to it though since I'm going uuuuupppp! Bf is here but he does not seem to be in a good mood so no having fun with him. What a bore. And this is not the best week to sexually...
- Thanks so much you guys for being there :-) The past few weeks have been really awful but you were all there for me and that really helped. I think I've finally broken through the depression which is a huge relief. I can go back to living again and...