iam30113
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- I want to cut everywhere, every imaginable inch of my body so the blood will leave faster. It's beautiful you know, the blood. All the lovely shades it has. And the smell... But I won't cut anywhere, will I? I'll just sit here and slowly lose my...
- Have you ever wanted to post something but you just didn't know how to word it and ended up not posting at all? Or you just didn't feel like talking about it though you knew you should because bottling things is a recipe for disaster and those...
- Is anyone here currently on any anti-depressants or meds for physical or mental illnesses? I stopped taking my anti-depressants before I got pregnant but now I feel like I need to be on something. I've been reading up about the risk factors and the...
- I don't know if I'm up or down or in between or both. My moods are all over the place and changing so rapidly it's giving me a whiplash. I know pregnancy hormones are supposed to screw with you like this, add to that the fact that I have a mood...
- I've sorta been in a really bad place mentally today. I found myself just walking aimlessly around campus. On my way home I just impulsively decided to blow my money. These days that's my only vice. I tried to make it a good splurge and went grocery...
- I went to the university hospital this morning cos it's the closest to me to make an ob/gyn appt and all I could afford to do was take a slip. Booking at the hospital side is literally my entire pay cheque for a MONTH. That's just booking. The fee...
- So what's the plan Emperors? Who's bringing what? I'll provide popcorn and the cushions so we can sprawl out on the lounge floor. We'll need other snacks and drinks so speak now so we can get our Empire on tonight.
- I'm not saying that ALL my screw ups were caused by my disorder but there are times when you know deep down that had you not been wired this way you wouldn't do something you've done that's totally screwed you over. Can you blame you dx then? Can...
- Nope, didn't drop the E. I'm big on tea. Loooove. I'd have it all day, every day. In Ja we use EVERYTHING to make tea. I've had a number of tree leaves and random vines as well as fruit peelings boiled and served as a nice cup of tea. Is that a...
- I've always been trying to pin point the signs that say I'm going up and I've found a few more. I've realized that when I'm going up I participate in class. Usually I just sit and listen or do puzzles but on the 'going up' days I talk. A lot. Guess...
- I'm about six weeks along, first child- I'm 21. I'm so sure I'm already starting to show. I'm pretty tiny. I'm only 5 ft and the last I checked I weighed 103lbs. My clothes are starting to get tight across my chest and waist area. Could I really be...
- i want to cut. i want ot cut so badly and there's nothing i can do to distract myself from it. i know i won't be able to sleep ad i can't take anything to help me sleep because of Orange. I'm sitting here, rocking myself, crying, scratching,...
- What if I don't tell my bf about the possibility? What if I just say I'm pregnant and leave it at that? Would that be wrong? As it is now I want nothing to do with the other guy. He's annoying and clingy and immature. Why are these things you don't...
- I've been having cramps in my lower abdomen for a while now, since before I knew for sure I was pregnant and I thought maybe it was my usual PMS cramps (I get them a few days in advance) but clearly that's not the case. It's getting worse so I think...
- I've been checking out ads and calling places all morning. All of the places close to campus are taken or the rent doesn't cover utilities. I don't want to be too far away from school because it's cheaper to walk to school and less time consuming...