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- Just add something you don't want to be and why. Keep the thread going.I don't want to be depressed because it kills everything I am.
- Never have I ever acted on my suicidal thoughts when they pop up. Usually I mull over them and cast them aside. I always avoid cutting when I feel like I really want to end it. Last night was different. I just felt so depressed and tired of the...
- Hi there! It's been a while. I've been online reading posts and stuff but I just couldn't find the words so... But i'm back. For now. Still in between diagnosis but MA has informed me I've been adopted into this crazy family so I'm here to stay...
- My pdoc kinda told me I need to figure out what my triggers are and it seems other people's anger is one. My housemate stormed in just now, went to the kitchen for a knife and locked herself in her room, crying. She's fine but I'm shaken, jumpy,...
- The other night I sat in bed watching a movie and methodically slicing my arm. I just feel like resisting the urge is pointless, going to therapy is pointless, putting on the mask for the world is pointless. I think I am slowly giving up and soon...
- I have an appt in the morning and I'm nervous. Plus I've had a really rough day. I got the feeling last year that my classmates weren't too fond of me. Unfortunately it's the same set this year and now I'm certain of it. I told myself I'm too old...
- So I went to my appt and what do you know- she decided I didn't need to be on meds just yet and after a few minutes of chatting it up declared me to be un-bipolar. Yep, she said I am absolutely not bipolar by any stretch of the imagination. I do...
- I'm about to tackle the health centre today to get them to set an appt for me to get my meds this week. They are annoyingly inefficient. I was told week before last that my appt was postponed and that they'd call me the day after to reschedule. I...
- I think i need to apologize to you guys. i am drunk. i know i shouldnt be drinking but i ws manic and there was liquor and it seemwed like a good ifea and now im on the bathrom floorm laughing and crying and waning to see mt docror and wondering...
- Hi everyone! Guess who's back from her 'vacation'? It actually got cut down to four days instead of eight because I had to help out with orientation but it was great spending time with my family. Mum took the week off so we really got in some...
- I might be off for a few days. Don't miss me too much :-) I hope you all have a great week and no one gets too high or too low. I'm heading home in a few hours and I think I might try to focus on my real time people,i.e, my family for the next...
- I have a presentation today and I woke up with so little energy and no creativity. Because of that I feel so unprepared and uncertain. I just feel empty, like something gobbled up every bit of emotion I have. Why did it have to be today, of all days?
- Great. I've finally come to terms with the idea of needing meds to keep me going and now that the dreaded appt day is here my appt has been postponed. Seems they had to spray the health center cos there's some virus going around and all of today's...
- Help! I probably should have asked my doc to explain this to me but it slipped my mind. What is rapid cycling? I mean, reeeeeally. I know it's basically moving from one swing to another at a faster pace than most beepers but what does it really...
- I was in a very bad place last night. I couldn't even cry. I was just in bed listening to Chandelier over and over again thinking of ways I could self harm that would seem like an accident if anyone saw the scars. For some reason I thought it was a...