i want to cut. i want ot cut so badly and there's nothing i can do to distract myself from it. i know i won't be able to sleep ad i can't take anything to help me sleep because of Orange. I'm sitting here, rocking myself, crying, scratching, pulling my hair, trying to give my hands something to do besides reach for a razor. i have no one in real time i can talk to, no one who would understand anyway. can someone please talk me down. say some magical phrase that will make this better, something. i don't want to cut but i need a release of some sort and that is the safest one at the moment. unless i go too far on purpose which at this point i just might. i don't know. i don't trust myself.