let the room spin spin spin. sick everywhere. i need someothing

oh honey, you're not drinking right now, right? It's time to stop. get some water, and 2 ibuprofen if you can keep them down. Wanna pm me? I'm here

I'm not sure what response you are looking for? I don't mean that as a casual comment - when you are able, realy really think about why you are telling us?

Do you want a free pass to be told it's really ok or do you want us to parent you?

You have done this before and regretted it. The upside is that this will probably pass and you will have "got away with it". Until the next time.

You ask us to judge and not to hate you. Why should we hate you?

As for judging, isn't that something you need to do for yourself?

btw, you went to the doctor a week or so back - what is the news on the meds?

I'll echo what sadie said, drink plenty of water, maybe try a slice of toast, cup of tea, ibuporfen or acetominophen and then try to get some sleep. sleep is the best cure. you sound like you are suffering enough so you don't need any shit from anyone right now. you'll get through this and you'll be better able to look at things with a clear head tomorrow. stop beating yourself up and give yourself the care you need right now, the rest can wait. hugs.

In response to something Fish brought up: For me, when I say something like "please don't judge or hate me" it's because I am judging and hating myself, and I project it onto others. It's important to realize that no one hates you, but it's possible that you're feeling that way about yourself right now. And that's something that you need to figure out!

I agree with everyone here and I sure do not envy you.

Sleep is best right now, and perspective. The kind of perspective you need to have a clear head. There is time later for the questions that only you can ask and for which only you have the answers.

So you made a mistake, it can happen. Just don't feel too unique: It was not that long ago that I was in the same predicament, only I was laying on a front lawn.

I had to re-read my post. I don't really remember posting it or what I said. And I don't know why I posted it either. My meds appt was postponed and has yet to be rescheduled- going in tomorrow to sort that out. I'm quite sober now and wondering why I even took the first sip. And of course saying the usual- I'm never gonna drink again.

There are lots of things you can do to prevent this. Now that you are aware and reading your post, maybe put some serious safeguards in place so you don't continue to harm yourself and others. xo