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- Well my abusive ex has been out of the house for nearly two months now. But I just cannot bring myself to stick with no contact. I question myself daily, several times daily, if I did the right thing. The logical me knows that I did. And most of the...
- He keeps sending me text messages "by mistake" meant for other people. But they just all happen to be things that would provoke a reaction in me. Such as texts to friends about how i am crushing him, or breaking his heart, or him telling someone no,...
- I know it is absolutely necessary for my sanity and success. But it is hard. I am used to contacting him. I have made a little observation though. Wednesday I was good about it...no contact all day. By evening he had found something silly to ask me...
- Maybe this isn't exactly on topic, but it does have a connection. And it is adding to my torment right now. Almost a month ago I lost a friend. It was an accidental overdose. She was only in her mid-thirties. She was about three years out of a...
- Well. It has only been three nights that he has not been there. And it definitely has not been no contact. But I am standing by my decision. Last night he texted me numerous times telling me of his love for me, and how I am a sad person but he is so...
- Several weeks ago my emotionally abusive BF rented his own place with his adult son. He never really left. Most of his belongings were still in my home, and he still pretty much lived there. Nothing changed. Except perhaps that he was still living...
- In fact, I haven't been able to stick to it at all. He rented a house and his son moved out, and he didn't really. He took some of his stuff. Has a bed there, but for all intents and purposes he still lives with me. He comes back every night at 10...
- Don't know where to start. Nearly four years of emotional abuse, manipulation, physical intimidation, sexual blackmail. And he is leaving. Feeling like a shell of my former self. Overweight, broken down, depressed, and he is leaving. The past year...
- I am in a bad place today emotionally. It is my house. The plan is that he is leaving. He agrees to it. Easily. I feel like this is also a ploy to work me up. To be nonchalant. It does work me up, I am not sure why. I want him to be devastated. He...
- I did ok yesterday. Even though we are still living together I want to have as little interaction as possible. And I did it for almost twenty four hours, which seems ridiculous but it is so hard. Well I got home and he of course engaged me. Why was...
- I reached out to his ex. I had wanted to do this for some time now. I wanted to know if his claims of it being me were true. She was very gracious thankfully. Offered to answer any questions and help in any way she could. She was portrayed to me as...
- Most of the time I just take it. I take the words and the manipulation and I swallow it down and do nothing. I let it eat me up from the inside. Well last night I snapped. Tired of him doing things that would never be acceptable for me to do yet I...
- Well...It has been quite some time since I have posted on here. I haven't had it in me to say anything without feeling like I'm just complaining and not doing anything to better my situation. But I have yet again told him I want to end it and I want...
- My mind is racing today..so please forgive if I ramble..or keep posting as new thoughts come to me. I have known what was going on was not right for quite some time now, but had attributed it to his "evil" ex that had done him wrong. But as time...
- It started on the ride home from work. He drives me to and from work...which is a story in itself. But yesterday I didnt speak on the ride home..which takes about ten minutes. When we got home I could tell he was annoyed...glaring at me. And then it...