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- Well I did it. I went back for a few weeks. Went back knowing he was seeing someone else. Went back even though deep down I knew it was wrong. I want so desperately to believe this man loves me. I want so desperately for him to acknowledge his part...
- My emotions have been on a more even keel this week. After a rough time last weekend...and two days of him calling me at work (I hung up on him each time) he has been quiet rest of the week. I struggle with weekends though...for several reasons....
- I actually bought it several weks ago, but after a particuarly emotional friday night...I started writing on Saturday. The words just flowed and I found myself with 10 pages filled in a day. Alot of it is angry. Alot of it is what I would like to...
- Right on schedule. The past couple weeks on Friday I either get a text or a "accidental phone call". I have been terrible at no contact. I am good for a couple days. Then I get mad or upset or want to speak my mind. Now its been about 24 hrs...and...
- As the weekend approaches...my anxiety starts rising. I know I was abused. I know this is not a normal person. But I can't wrap my head around causing so much PAIN to someone...anyone...even someone you don't love and act like you didn't do a damn...
- I was reading somewhere about narcs and their sense of entitlement and how alot of them are aggressive drivers and also steal. Mine was both. His driving petrified me. He pulled maneuvers that were not only embarassing but downright dangerous..why?...
- Every day is a struggle. Some days are good and I feel like I've got this. And other days are absolutely horrible. I cried pretty much all day on Saturday. I feel like my son is having to put up with another thing he shouldn't have to. I text people...
- I never imagined in a million years imagined this would be such a struggle. I had so many times wished he was gone and just imagined I would feel peace. I have moments I feel ok about myself, but more often it's doubt, self criticism and absolutely...
- I won't call myself a failure...I am a human. I messed up on saturday and let him drag me back into the madness. Started with him "accidentally" calling me twice and I fell for it and responded. Got myself back on track Sunday and talked to ALOT of...
- Wow how eye opening and oddly therapeutic. Two years ago I joined this site. Two years ago I was already living in hell for quite some time. Took me two years to get to the point that I feel ok about letting go. Two years wasted but a lesson...
- Last evening I ran into him coming out of a store. He asked how I was doing and without breaking stride said "great" and kept on to my car. He followed me of course but I took off before he could quite get to me. Of course then came the texts bout...
- I let him go. I was so miserably unhappy. I was so tired of the anger and the names and never being able to please him. The physical intimidation and sexual demands. It was awful and the more time I have to myself the more I think about it. Being...
- To fill everyone in. I was with my abusive ex for nearly 4 years. Finally in March I made him move out of my house. I was weak and believed he loved me and continued seeing him up until three weeks ago. He hadn't changed at all despite his claims so...
- I know I am doing the right thing, but my head feels like a jumbled mess sometimes. I can totally see him for what he is and how he has treated me. Why does it bother me so that he is out there on the prowl again? He will do this to her as he has...
- Haven't been on here in a while. I was with my emotionally, verbally, emotionally abusive ex for nearly four years. I finally made him move out back in March. To say I haven't gone no contact would be an understatement. I fell for him telling me how...