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  Posted: 09/22/2016

  jstanicegirl commented on the discussion Fell off the wagon. Feeling stupid and pathetic.

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  Fell off the wagon. Feeling stupid and pathetic

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  Last Reply: itsjustmeagain 09/23/2016

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  Well I did it. I went back for a few weeks. Went back knowing he was seeing someone else. Went back even though deep down I knew it was wrong. I want so desperately to believe this man loves me. I want so desperately for him to acknowledge his part and tell me that this was not all my fault as he claims it was.  I went back knowing he was with me one night and her the next. She does not know. She thinks they have a relationship. This in itself should show me what a twisted, warped person he...

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  another weekend...hoping to stay strong.

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  Last Reply: MyTrueColors 09/03/2016

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  My emotions have been on a more even keel this week. After a rough time last weekend...and two days of him calling me at work (I hung up on him each time) he has been quiet rest of the week. I struggle with weekends though...for several reasons. First I guess it's because my weekends used to be all about him and I still haven't figured out how to make them about me now. Second is because I know he spends the entire weekend now with his new supply. I'm not so much angry that he has that...I knew...

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  Posted: 09/01/2016

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  started a journal.

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  Last Reply: itsjustmeagain 08/30/2016

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  I actually bought it several weks ago, but after a particuarly emotional friday night...I started writing on Saturday. The words just flowed and I found myself with 10 pages filled in a day. Alot of it is angry. Alot of it is what I would like to say to him, but has just as much affect on a piece of paper as it would on him. Some of it is good. He has told me for years that I can't ever be happy. You know what...I can and things do make me happy. I am not a loud, boisterous party girl...

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  and of course...hoover right before the weekend...

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  Last Reply: lynncollins9981 09/01/2016

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  Right on schedule. The past couple weeks on Friday I either get a text or a "accidental phone call". I have been terrible at no contact. I am good for a couple days. Then I get mad or upset or want to speak my mind. Now its been about 24 hrs...and it's Friday and I get a text "So I guess you're back to hating me again." I want to scream. So infuriating. Why continuously torture someone. He has someone new!!!!!

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  still just can't wrap my head around it...

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  Last Reply: MyTrueColors 08/26/2016

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  As the weekend approaches...my anxiety starts rising. I know I was abused. I know this is not a normal person. But I can't wrap my head around causing so much PAIN to someone...anyone...even someone you don't love and act like you didn't do a damn thing wrong. And then immediately go out and start the process right up again with someone new.  I am impatient. I want her to see the real him now. I don't want him to get what he wants yet again. It is unhealthy to even still be thinking about...

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  common traits???

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  Last Reply: christine72 08/26/2016

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  I was reading somewhere about narcs and their sense of entitlement and how alot of them are aggressive drivers and also steal. Mine was both. His driving petrified me. He pulled maneuvers that were not only embarassing but downright dangerous..why? I suppose it's because he just thinks he is above others and rules. He also shoplifted constantly. Ridiculous stuff. He got caught one time and had stolen butter and dried cranberries. Butter and dried cranberries!!! When I had a cart of stuff that...

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  Posted: 08/23/2016

  jstanicegirl commented on the discussion 4 weeks and Im still a crying zombie.

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  Posted: 08/23/2016

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