I’m so upset idk. Yesterday we went to this near by college and there were a bunch of other colleges there and it was just really stressful and I didn’t enjoy it. None of the college’s there had my major and I want to major in dance therapy but no school’s in Iowa have it so I have to go out of state to get it and a lot of the college people there told me that I should maybe go for physiology and dance because I also want to open up my own place and this one guy was like well it’s such a narrow field that around here he didn’t know how it would work or whatever and said I should go into something like that and idk it just really put my dream down. And so I went in and talked with my school counselor and told her about this one college I really wanted to go to and she was like you need 3 year’s of advanced math and I only have one….i know I can still take my other two next year but that’s a lot of math and I’m not even that good at it but it just sucked cuz it was like she didn’t’ even care that she just killed my dream. I wanted to go to this particular college and she just flat out told me I can’t cuz I don’t have my math and I just about started crying. Now I can still go if I go to a community college and then transfer over to that college and I guess I’m ok with that too but I just was really set on getting out of here after high school and finally starting to heal but no I have to be around here and my mom win’s once again. She didn’t’ want me to go to UCLA and now I’m not, at least for a couple of year’s after high school. But I just hate that she always gets what she wants and I never get what I want. It’s just soooo frustrating!!!!!!!! So my school counselor is no help to me. She basically told me today that I shouldn’t/cant (or whatever) come and talk to her. Cuz I’m like seeing my counselor and then I talk with this other lady a lot and my school counselor and another teacher at school and she was like you should just be talking with you counselor or something cuz she didn’t want my counselor telling me on thing and then they tell me something else. But I don’t’ talk to them for them to tell me what to do I just talk to talk. Like talking to my counselor and to them is different…idk how to explain it but I don’t’ go to them for them to know how to fix me I just want some advice and just someone to listen too but she was just like you shouldn’t be talking to all of us it would confuse you on what you should do and stuff but then she was like and I’m not telling you you cant come and talk with me and idk that’s why I don’t talk with people....they never want to hear it. That’s why I don’t go to her…she’s told me this before and why would I go and talk to someone who I don’t’ think wants to hear me. Ahhh it’s frustrating….!!!!!! So I got my license token away ya know well I have to take the written test to get it back and so I’ve token it twice lol and have failed it both time’s but by like 3 and 4 and well today I tried (2nd time) and I failed and my mom called Tammie’s phone and talked to me and I told her I didn’t get it and she got mad at me. She was disappointed in me. I hate people being disappointed in me and it just hurt knowing she was. Idk right now I just want to cry. I have a meet tomorrow and I’m suppose to work but I can’t cuz I have a meet and I don’t under stand why she put me down cuz she knew I had a meet and I’m not gonna get there in time and she’s dumb.
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hey...im sorry they told u that about what u wanted to major in, it isnt right that they tried to smash your dreams, but i know yo and i know youll keep on with those dreams of what you wanna do, and someday you will do it, even if it will take a little longer...
the councelor telling you that, is retarded, she should always be willing to listen, thats her job....what a bitch... and I will always listen, u know that...i do wanna hear...i do care..
as for your mom....she needs to get her ass kicked, by me.
sucks you have a meet and work tomorrwo both
I love you sis
Many times challenges are put in front of our dreams, but you can accomplish what you put your mind to. The timing of God\'s speed is not always how we\'d like things to be, but it\'s always for our highest good. That (the reasons) is seldom realized until much later in life. Just remember to stay focused and do what you have to. Your goal is an admirable one.
hun.listien to me..if yuu wanna dance..go for it!!
yuu can do what yuu love and screw what other ppl say...college is yuur time o shine and not anyone elses!
I applaud you for seeking people out to talk to!! I do see the point though your school counselor makes about you talking to her and then your own counselor...only b/c every counselor has different ways of approaching things...and too many spoons in the kettle...just stirs it all up. One might be advising you to do something one way, and the other might advise you to approach it a different way...then that will make you confused. I don\'t think she is being mean in that sense. Although, I think if you have things on your mind throughout the school day that are impeding you from getting through your school day...it may be best to just go and let loose and vent to her...but not expect any advice from her, just a listening ear....b/c then that would be too many spoons in the kettle, KWIM??
When you get older, you have to start living your life for YOU...not your parents. It\'s YOUR decision about your life plan...and you have to do what makes YOU happy...NOT your parents....that keeps you in bondage.
I agree it would be best for you to go away to school, to get out of the house that has all the triggers in it...and live for YOU...and start to heal.
Don\'t give up on your dream...If you want it bad, you will find a way to get it.
It might be good to think about a double major though....just to have a back up in case there is not a lot of places to do dance therapy.
You could always double major, and have a job in your other major, and do dance therapy on the side....or work part-time in one major and part-time in dance therapy. You might consider that...sometimes it\'s not that hard, just a few extra courses to double major....consider it.
Try to take the College Prep classes at school...some schools even have ways to get college credit AND High school credit at the same time...by taking the classes at college. Ask your guidance counselor about that...you will need to be able to drive though...it\'s a way to knock out 2 birds with one stone....but you are pretty busy now.
Maybe even take some classes in the summer as well. Take them at a community college where rates are cheaper. And they\'ll transfer.
You might just be so nervous and uptight when taking your driving test...try to relax next time before you go...Take some deep breaths, listen to a relaxation CD before you get in there...Might Help.
Hugs!