DianneE

Feeling much better physically as the headache is pretty much gone!  Have been feeling depressed and isolated....as the "pink cloud" of my first few months of elation from being GF is seemingly...

Wow....it's been over a week since I last posted my journal....I had a very severe headache last weekend that is still persisting slightly today....Not sure what that is about....never before had a...

I just realized today is day 100 in my recovery....I don't know if that is supposed to be a milestone, but it is for me.....especially since I have no urges or thoughts desiring gambling today.....I...

Feeling good.....paid off one of my debts today...a big one.   The light at the end of the tunnel is getting a wee bit brigher.  Had a good night, chatted online a bit, watched "The Godfather"...

Last night, I made some plans for some mandatory seminars I have to attend.  Because of my gambling, I now have a limited time to take care of them, and the only one left for the time frame I...

Whew....another stressful day.....received a letter complaining about an employee....from someone who is probably a nut from the sounds of the letter.  This morning I got a wonderful commendation...

I am just amazed how happy I feel today- I feel like it's my b-day or something.... I bought myself a yoga matt, some exercise bands, and an exercise ball set I've been wanting as a little present...

It was a stressful week.....a sopoena server came in to me at work and tried to serve me with a sopoena for a $20,000 debt...it wasn't for me, it was someone with a similar name.  I had to show my...

Thursday morning...today I'm 85 days GF....looking forward to the 90 day mark....I know, it's only a number, but there was a time when 90 days seemed impossible.  I've had a lot of stress at work...

Sunday night.....going through papers in my home office, tossing, organizing....yesterday was the hardest day for urges I've had since I quit gambling.....probably because it was a double...

Addiction is a monster with a ravenous appetite.  I live with this monster.  In the beginning, it was just a baby monster, and only nipped at me a little.  I thought it was fun to play with, and I...

Monday morning....weekend was not too bad...the BF was very irritable on his bday, we talked about it, and he admitted he was mad because he had to spend all his money to save his car and couldn't...

Today is my Bf's birthday, and we have gone to gamble on our birthdays ever since I started gambling.....for the last two days, he has mentioned the names of all three local casinos wherever he could...

Wednesday evening, just finished work.....today I made another payment to the IRS, and must have connected to an angel there because when I called today to let them know I was making a payment, ...

One of the things about gambling that I hated was that it took all joy from other activities.  Nothing else could compare to the highs and lows of gambling.  Any other interests just died for...