DianneE

Thursday morning...today I'm 85 days GF....looking forward to the 90 day mark....I know, it's only a number, but there was a time when 90 days seemed impossible.  I've had a lot of stress at work...

Sunday night.....going through papers in my home office, tossing, organizing....yesterday was the hardest day for urges I've had since I quit gambling.....probably because it was a double...

Addiction is a monster with a ravenous appetite.  I live with this monster.  In the beginning, it was just a baby monster, and only nipped at me a little.  I thought it was fun to play with, and I...

Monday morning....weekend was not too bad...the BF was very irritable on his bday, we talked about it, and he admitted he was mad because he had to spend all his money to save his car and couldn't...

Today is my Bf's birthday, and we have gone to gamble on our birthdays ever since I started gambling.....for the last two days, he has mentioned the names of all three local casinos wherever he could...

Wednesday evening, just finished work.....today I made another payment to the IRS, and must have connected to an angel there because when I called today to let them know I was making a payment, ...

One of the things about gambling that I hated was that it took all joy from other activities.  Nothing else could compare to the highs and lows of gambling.  Any other interests just died for...

Today someone at work behaved in an inappropriate manner, behaved in a way that was not consistent with respecting their job or respecting me...  In the past, I might have let it slide, or blamed...

Thursday morning.....still hanging in there....each day that passes, I am closer to my goal of getting out of trouble with the IRS....made another payment this week....the end is in sight.....well,...

Monday, feeling good....went to a laundromat last night for the first time in years....my washer broke the same day my TV broke last week....they are conspiring against me...LOL....I won't fix either...

Friday....just feeling tired....one of my employees is on vacation and I'm working extra hard to pick up the slack....I'm on 11 straight days of work and have to work 10 more before I can take a day...

Wednesday.....day 57 GF....I'm looking forward to the 60 day milestone......I still think of gambling at least fleetingly every day.....today one of my employees decided to tell me all about her fun...

I just realized today is day 100 in my recovery....I don't know if that is supposed to be a milestone, but it is for me.....especially since I have no urges or thoughts desiring gambling today.....I...

Feeling good.....paid off one of my debts today...a big one.   The light at the end of the tunnel is getting a wee bit brigher.  Had a good night, chatted online a bit, watched "The Godfather"...

Last night, I made some plans for some mandatory seminars I have to attend.  Because of my gambling, I now have a limited time to take care of them, and the only one left for the time frame I...