DianneE

When I think about gambling, I have to accept that it is something I have to take total responsibility for. I used to blame my bf for getting me into it.....but he didn't force me.  He cajoled,...

Whew!  My day started with a blowout at high speed on the freeway coming to work.....then I was late, then my assistant called in....so understaffed.....then had a massive run-in with a "problem"...

Back again from my little trip.  Had a really good time....hotel was nice, great bed....enjoyed seeing the Monterey Aquarium, especially the huge tank with all the big fish....whole schools of...

I went to two casinos last night...and didn't gamble!  I had won a jackpot at one of them  last year, and needed the W-2 for my taxes....the other one I went to, I got a win/loss statement that...

Ah....a day off....and Sept 1 marks 9 mos. GF for me!!!! Started the day by going out for a nice breakfast....then went to visit a local "landmark" that I hadn't taken time to visit before....spent...

Today is Thursday....Thursday...one of my "trigger" days....when I never failed to go gambling... Yesterday, one of my employees told me her mother had just won a HUGE jackpot at a local...

Today is my day off.  Ahhhhhh........Except that I have to go in to work anyway and try to fix the broken computer...or buy a new   one and spend hours setting it up, reloading software, backing up...

Last night I had a dream that I slipped.  I was at the casino, trying to put more money into a machine, searching through my purse, and knowing I would have to get up and go to the ATM.  It was a...

Today is my birthday.....I guess that makes me 103 LOL...  I'm back again from Indiana....very glad I went.  It was so worth it to be there for my friend and her kids! I've always told them they...

I got a call last night from my best friend to tell me her husband had just died of a heart attack....we've been friends since I was 9 yrs old....and I've known her husband for nearly that long. I...

Just wrote a long journal and lost it, yikes!  (hate that when it happens!) Had a good time at Lake Tahoe.....it was beautiful until Saturday, when smoke from the (I suppose) Yosemite fires started...

Tomorrow after work, I leave for Lake Tahoe....3 days of seminars, and at least a respite from the heat.  As much as I have been jonesing to gamble lately, I'm oddly not that afraid of going.  I...

Thanks to everyone here who has shown me such caring, it just brings tears to my eyes.I feel like I have been held in loving arms and comforted by the beautiful people here.I am so incredibly...

I got in to Indiana last night and drove 2 hrs straight to the hospital...I guess I wasn't clear in my journal yesterday...my bio mom lives in Indiana, so I flew in to see her...She was in a lot of...

Sunday afternoon, I'm sitting at work, things have slowed down.  Seems like I am still struggling with balance in my life.  I work at one thing....like getting my house clean and organized....and...