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- just as we were talking about finding out who are true friends are and those folks who compare divorce and widowhood as one. I heard tonight from the person that caused me to vent here shortly into my widowhood. The phone call was about 40 minutes...
- well 2015 is now a bad memory and it is on to 2016. Will it make it all better - no. will it make me miss Ronnie less - no. Will it bring more restful nights - doubtful. But, at least it lets me know in a tangeable way that life moves on and I...
- Hi, I was a regular poster on this board for quite awhile this year, but needed to get away. I found the raw grief that we all can express so freely here was becoming too much for me and was stalling me in my journey rather than aiding me. I'm now...
- took the day off of work and made it through, even slept ok last night-dont know how but i did. Today I am exhausted though- i think the emotions caught up. This feels like I've turned a page, not sure whats next, and Im npt expecting it to be any...
- Thanksgiving and Christmas. My husband I always hosted Christmas and he did most of the cooking down my mothers house for Thanksgiving since my Mom and Dad got older and especially after my Dad passed (2 years ago). We would always laugh and say...
- so now wishing i hadn't, would love the quiet time alone. Oh well, I will end up having a good day. I think when i made theses plans I just wasnt aware how hard the labor day weekend would be, Wasnt thinking of it as a holiday weekend just a long...
- moved my wedding band to my right and my grandmothers wedding ring (a victorian style aquamarine - she was born in 1896-so it doesn't look like a wedding band). At first I thought I was only going to do it for a few hours while sitting at my desk at...
- yesterday was the 2nd anniversary of my Dad's sudden passing and this Saturday will be the 5 month anniversary of my husband. Just rough that they are so close together. Finally have the stonecutter on track and have talked to him twice this...
- from a queen to twin - was hard but was the right thing to do. The room seems bigger and more me now. Had the hardest time sleeping last night though, but the sleep I did have was actually sounder than it's been in awhile so I guess it was the...
- nope...not cured of the widow plague - never will be, not sure I want to be. but I do consider myself ME much more than 1/2 of US these days. It feels kind of sad, but something I will get used to. Now I just have to discover who I want me to be....
- this week is 4 months, last night if you go by day of the week, tomorrow by date. I feel like everyone else in my life has moved on and i'm still here in my sorrow. I don't expect them to be where I am but it is tough when others stop...
- had a horrible dream last night, hubby was in it but didn't want to be with me, had a bock on his phone so i couldnt call him etc.. I know in reality if at all possible we would be together, and it was only a refection of my new reality w/out him -...
- It has not been all that long, but the initial shock/deep drak grief is slowy lifting and I look to future more. I understand I can't go backwards, and I'm slowly getting into my own routine. This support group and my friends have helped me get...
- first thank you all for your kind words and reassurances they will help get me through tomorrow but i guess i wasn't as clear as i could have been. I am only at the 3 mth mark not my one year anniversay as a few of you thought, but last year at...
- last year at this time my husband was in the hospital for an 11 day stay and was pretty sick. Tomorrow I'll be at a family cookout - too much in a year's time frame. Started losing focus at work on Wednesday night and didn't realize until late...