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- 3 months ago today, if you go by day of week (not date) he had the surgery that we had hoped would be a cure and was in ICU by Friday evening and by sunday (march 22nd) he was gone. In my heart I could no longer feel him by Saturday and believe I...
- as you've heard me write here before these are my hardest hours. Deep breathe, second cup of coffee and I'm ready to log on now. Wishing everyone a little bit of peace today
- people equate their grief over divorce with your grief over widowhood? Please don't get me wrong, I'm not saying the pain of divorce is any easier (depending on t e situation) but I want people to acknowledge they are different. I have noticed...
- after Ron passed, I was sleeping better than I had in since I can't remember except when the dog was waking me up. When people asked me how I was sleeping, I was saying I was sleeping better than I had in a long time, but I added it was because I...
- no special triggers, just a really tough time today. I can't even bring myself to call on my usual support network or distractions. I feel like a child who will only be comforted by her parent. I only want to be comforted by the one who is the...
- need to not go to work - so I can take care of paperworkneed my weekends for me - so I can pamper myselfneed the dog to sleep through the night - so I can try to restneed to take care of paperwork - so I can sleep when the dog lets meneed to clean...
- I think I've posted this here before but it is not leaving. My hardest hours of the day are my working hours. Even though Ron and I spent most of our time together once I was out of work for the day - it is the working part of my day that is so...
- my husband passed on a sunday night a little more than 2 months ago and this has been the 1st sunday since that i haven't had an extra hard time-rather than just the normal adjusting to my new reality. The rain and thunder are now moving in which...
- I've read heard about others dreaming about their spouses and the brief comfort it brings them even if then followed by a renewed sense of lose. I seem to be doing the opposite, when I do dream of him, it's always in the framework of some negative...
- I've been doing ok with husband's passing, but this weekend, my sister, who can be toxic has left me feeling bad about myself. Maybe if she wasn't my older/only sister I wouldn't keep letting her impact me so much. I think I can't shake it this...
- I shouldn't complain, but my husband's siblings are yet again on the way to his gravesite. THey have visited there more since he passed - 2 months ago than they did the last year when he was so sick. URGH UGH and RRRR. THey have been good to me...
- Today would have been my husband's 62nd b.day and instead tomorrow is the 2 month anniversary of his passing. So far it has been a good day. Some close friends and some of siblings and I met in the cemetery this morning. His name is not on the...
- It will be two months this upcoming Friday, but 8 Sundays ago tomorrow evening that my world fell apart. I cannot believe that as I write this I have still not hit the two month mark. I'm sure to my friends and family it seems ages ago, but 2...
- and was able to wake up this morning with a little more motiivation. It really is all about the baby steps. THanks everyone who keeps reminding me of this :)
- I can shake off most of the comments people make, but I was talking to a friend today and still cannot believe what she said to me. This is someone who when her husband completely unexpecedly left her and her daughter to move in with another woman...