maryelnew
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- finding myself getting annoyed at a lot lately. Annoyed the world won't stop long enough for me to get back on. Annoyed when people talk about retirement and the plans they have with their loved ones. Annoyance at the mundane and Super Annoyance...
- When my husband and I were going through some rough medical/financial or other beyond control issues and it seemed the world was a deep dark place we would sit at night and each had to say something positive (not just a non-negative thought) and...
- I think it is because the weather here is beautiful today. his disease did not allow him to be out in weather that was too cold or too hot and today is just the type of temperature that would have made him feel better. I sat on my porch and ate...
- and if I was a drinker wine. That time I had planned for me has fallen apart. My Mom is in a lot of pain today - huge difference from yesterday, so tomorrow I will go down to see her then I willI pick up her dog from the sitter who now has decided...
- At my husband's wake, but widowed cousin, gave me some words of advise that I keep running through my head and am trying hard to follow "remember, be kind to yoursef".I've finally admitted that working 5 days a week is too much for now. I've put...
- I've been having a rough few days and I can't seem to get passed it. I keep comparing the hospital room my Mom is in post-op vs. what my husband was in during his hospitalizations. The hospital my mother is in, they are all private rooms that...
- for those of you who responded to my post earlier thank you. As an update my cousin's wife just sent me a text and she will be with me on Monday. She had a feeling that my sister was not going to be and did not want me to be alone. I feel kind of...
- was nervous going there and tense all day but when I got there surprisingly did not feel much at all. it wasn't that I was numb it was just that didn't feel any connection there. I don't know if it is that the ground is still disturbed and still...
- my husband has been gone since March 22nd and Monday my Mom is going in for what could be a lengthy surgery. I am her proxy and will be the one to be at the hospital during the surgery. I would be there regardless especially since it would never...
- SIGH...paid the funeral bill and the check to the cemetary to have marble put down for the veterans foot marker. Not sure what emotion I had when I put them in the mail. Sad maybe? Resigned maybe? Angry it feels like inflated prices because there...
- and last night had to have my car towed and my husband was a mechanic...not sure anyone on the "outside" truely gets it. Feel like I don't have to say more here. Just exhausted today. I am striving to stay up for 2 more hours and then off to bed.
- I can see a lot of you have lost spouses/partners from long term illness - this is the poem that wasI chose for my husbands prayer card. I thought it may bring some comfort, it has helped me. I hope you all find some peacee in your day today.God...
- hoping no IRS agents in the group - man could not concentrate, but I got them in...and seriously tried to do my best - was getting rather commical I think, I just couldn't deal with the paper mess, so I tried turbotax,,,,I know now why they say no...
- started back to work last week and I'm finding this to be my hardest part of the day. I think it is because I can't get up and do something else if I feel the need - I am on someone else's schedule. I've expressed this to a few others and only...
- well once again just when I get to sleep the dog is waking me up. I know she is grieving too, but this is getting hard. I have to get up extra early tomorrow for work. Running out of way s to help her. Any thoughts on what worked for your furry...