sweettheresap

I feel so defeated right now. Mostly, I feel that I have defeated myself. All those plans; all that work; and I left it off when he got hurt, and I started to see what I honestly believed some kind...

Plans got moved up, and while I am excited about the prospect of living free from tyranny, I am waging a battle within myself--thinking of the myriad things that could go wrong and the hassle that...

Wow, this is going to be hard to write. I know this because I've been thinking about this for months and each time I end up not doing it. Part of this is because it is so painful to think about; but...

Each day gets easier in some ways; I feel stronger. I have been moving slowly this time--much more slowly than ever before; doing A LOT of reading and writing and learning. That is new for me....

That word has meant so many things for me over the years....from literal physical fighting to arguments to fighting for my very survival. Today it means fighting for freedom, peace, joy, happiness,...

I think I'm getting sick, or maybe I'm just REALLY exhausted because I am REALLY exhausted all week; nothing I eat is actually staying in my body, and I am covered in bruises that I have NO idea...

So, I once again get woke up at 3:40 this morning, my lower half covered in vaseline, and him rubbing himself (for lack of a proper, acceptable term to put on here) between my legs--repeatedly. He...

So Alexis made some comments about suicide that were really upsetting. However, I'm thankful she made them to me. I've had the chance to refocus on my reasons for leaving and to become even more...

Just drifting today but feeling mostly good. I talked to the girls about starting therapy next week. Alexis is a little resistant but said she will do whatever makes me happy. It broke my heart, I...

Memories are still coming in snippets, at least it's not the torrential rain it was before. Unfortunately some of these memories are still too horrible for me to really deal with just yet, so I'm...

Last night I was standing there, eyes and nose burning from the effort of trying to hold tears back, shaking from...what,I really don't know. Suddenly it hit me that I want really hurt or upset....

So...He just got home, it is nearly 10:00 at night. He tries to act like he is working all the time, but the truth is he is spending time at his...shop, not to work on things to make money, but to...

I had taken a lethality assessment at crisis intervention previously, I know that the results frightened the counselor and she told me that she was legally required to share the information with the...

This was during the time the kids and I were living on the eastern shore. It was thanksgiving and we had made the 3.5 hour trip back to this side of the bridge to be with family. The kids were...

Took the girls to the mall today. Picked up my niece and took her with us. Should have known was gonna spark an exhausting interrogation. I shouldn't be driving all over creation in HIS truck, I am...