sweettheresap

I am starting to feel motivated again. It must have something to do with coming on here and remembering why I feel so "sluggish" in the first place, as well as thinking about all that my children...

Okay, I've decided it is far beyond the point of no return..gotta go for my sanity and health and for my kids' sake. Decisions that need to be made.....1. Stay here or leave the state?If I leave the...

I seem to have lost myself in the process of trying to survive this relationship. I am not the person I once was, nor am I anywhere near the person I will be. If I need motivation, this is the person...

I should be doing homework, cleaning the house, paying bills..something other than sitting here "reminiscing", but somehow I think this is more important. I need to keep remembering things that have...

About a month ago, I was woke up at 4 am to him trying to have sex with me--regardless of how many times I have asked him not to do this, he continues to do it. I was particularly sleepy at this time...

Number 1: Rough treatment. We have gone so far beyond this occasional rough treatment that it isn't even funny. There is no longer any really rough treatment, not like in the beginning and for so...

http://counsellingresource.com/lib/therapy/self-help/loser/4/ Read this later....gotta go to work...good stuff!!

She calls me Monday crying, asking if her and the boys can come move in for a while. I say, yes of course, but what I'm really thinking is "how in the hell am I going to pull this one off?!" Right...

I have been agonizing over whether or not to write this down. What's the point? In the grand scheme of things, is it really all that bad? Compared to all the incidents of the last 17 years? Not...

I am the type of person that needs to write lists when I am planning something. Unfortunately, I cannot actually write a list and keep it anywhere because he will most certainly find it and call me...

I love Pink! She has such a way of cutting through all the bullshit with her songs. Here are the lyrics to her latest--such a fitting tribute! White knuckles and sweaty palms from hanging on too...

I have to hurry and get out the door for work, but just had to put this down before I "forget" it. This is actually quite laughable, all things considered.Today is Alexis' 14th birthday. Last night...

I am thinking of skipping town and starting over somewhere else. My greatest fear is legal reprisals if I take the kids over state lines without his permission, and let's face it I can't get his...

I love my children more than anything in the world. But I have been SO blind about the situation that I have placed them in; one that they have NO control over, they are just pawns in this sick game...

Try to destroy relationships and embarrass her so badly she stops talking to others. One incident of many:My best friend's wedding. I was the maid of honor. I was not "allowed" to even go to the...