sweettheresap

Okay, so what threats has he made over the years? Why am I scared? Well, in the "good old days" the threats were pretty straightforward. For instance, there was the night he point blank told me that...

Today was trenten's 2nd birthday. I had to work today, but since we close early on Saturday, my sister planned the party to start at 3, so the girls and I wouldn't be too late. I told Timmy last...

I pulled my son out of school in 2011 because he was getting in fights every other week and if he wasn't fighting someone else, he was breaking his hands, literally, by punching walls, lockers, and...

First,I realized today why I haven't been able to tell either of my parents the dire situation I and my kids are in. I tried to talk to my mom and she continued to steer the conversation to get damn...

Lord, I feel like I am on a roller coaster ride of my own choosing now. Yesterday I felt strong, sure, and determined. This morning I woke up feeling a vague sense of unease which then escalated to...

It's the craziest thing...my feelings are all over the map. One minute I'm panicked and ready to give up, the next I feel stronger and more determined. I'm feeling kind of bipolar myself these days....

Ok, this is insignificant really, but since I am sitting here with my blood boiling, I'm going to write it down. I'm getting ready for work. He tried to call twice while I was outside starting the...

Keeping my journal and forcing myself to remember and accept that this has happened. Opening a credit card and a savings. Doing research. Reconnecting with crisis intervention and making myself...

I was reading a post in the forum, thinking about how sad out is that these wonderful, intelligent, good people lose so much of themselves....confidence and so on. It got me thinking about how much...

It's occurred to me lately how ridiculously low my standards for what constitutes "niceness" and "decency" and "loving behaviors" has gotten. I've only just realized recently that, unlike the abuse...

I've been thinking a lot about our "relationship" and I've realized that so much of the time I have not only excused some REALLY bad behavior, but I have also chosen to ignore the times when he isn't...

This morning I think I had a mini panic attack. As I've never really had one, and it wasn't as bad as I've heard they can be,I can't be sure but whatever it was sucked. I suddenly stated thinking of...

Last night he was trying to tell me that I had made it clear from dayy one that he was an outsider and how he had never been important, gotten respect, and what have you. I brought up some of the...

So, by the time I finally get into bed it is about 9:30. He is laying there, quite obviously pretending to be asleep at this point. He is breathing incredibly loudly--not snoring. Anyway, I lay there...

Last night I can only assume that he knew he was in the wrong for not following through on his promise to look at my car. I don't know what else could have been the issue. I had called him at 6 to...