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One more thought. I was often confused when reading about abusive narcissist because the very first item didn't really fit mine. He did not push for us to move in together early, in fact he really...

First let me say that God I hate writing on my phone, typos drive me nuts and I can't figure out how to space right, but at least I can write. I've been thinking a lot today....not specifically about...

He was supposed to work on my car this weekend, of course he didn't because he was working on his newest car. Just saying....

I will continue to remember and write it out. I will make an appointment with the house of Ruth lawyer at the courthouse by my job and gather a list of questions to have answered. I will go to my...

I'm the grand scheme of things, and probably too anyone outside of this type off situation, this would seem silly. I realize though that it is just one more show of how very little he thinks of me,...

Amazingly I can't really clearly remember any more violent episodes, these were the first big ones, the others were so minor in comparison. There were days I would wake up to him literally choking...

A very wise woman in here suggested that I reflect on how this exercise is making me feel so I'm going to. I feel pretty anxious this morning, once I opened the flood gates I can't seem to stop the...

I took a break and I think I can finish this one entry now. So, Theresa had no insurance and honestly I wasn't the only one with my head in the sand because there was no money for the funeral. It...

Continued.....anyway, he got his wish just little more than a year later. As a family we had met with the hospice worker on Tuesday who had explained what would happen when she came home and how...

This pain ironically didn't involve any physical violence at all, nevertheless it is STILL the worst example to me of the kind of person he is. I hate that I let him take from me something I can...

Ironically, this particular incident occurred 4 months before I actually left for the first time. We moved in together in March, by May I would be in the hospital with a collapsed lung....that's how...

Continuing on with my theme of looking back to move forward....after the particular incident mentioned in my last post, I knew I couldn't do this anymore. I could no longer really pretend my kids...

I've been thinking about an incident that happened not long after we moved in together. Our youngest was about 10 months old, Alexis had just turned 2, and Jordan was 5. Life was bad, but I tried to...

We didn't move in together until our youngest was 3 months old. I never could have envisioned, not in my worst nightmare, the hell that was about to engulf mine and my children's lives. From the...

So....I talked to Theresa last night. God only knows why she had stuck by me this long, but she has and for that I am so thankful. She made me cry last night,, and she cried, and in short she laid...