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The possibility of my Mum's bf moving in is now quite probable. Sometime next week or the week after. He has plucked up the courage to ask which is what my Mum was waiting for.Trouble is...I'm in the...

My mood swings are actually unbelievable...UN-BELIEVABLE!!!!Right, update:This morning - woke up and wished I had succeeded again.Later that morning - feeings intensifyed when I had to tell the rest...

Today was just another reminder of just how fucked up my head still is, despite me being able to be completely normal around everyone at day patients today and once again....my Mum.I told my key...

It didn't work... I obviously didn't have enough. Either that or my meds really ARE a placebo like I feared. I don't remember falling asleep after cutting again but I must have done. Woke up earlier...

I guess this could be a bit of a warning to you all if I'm not around. I don't want to go into too much detail...I'm tired of it all. Ended up with me at about 3:30am getting up to go downstairs and...

I want to cry... so much. Still can't. I don't know what to do with myself. I'm crawling in my own skin. I want out!

I can't bare this anymore. These thoughts. Wanting to die. What is the point in trying to get through it again? It just comes back again...and again and again! I'm so tired. So fucking tired of it...

As if things arn't hard enough at the moment. This morning I was woken up by my Brother telling me to get dressed because they were calling an ambulance for my Nan and she's had a stroke.My Mum and...

So in true Borderline style I decided at 2am this morning that I WAS going to go back to the unit today. I'm glad I did.I used the morning catch up group to talk about why I left, how I was feeling...

I had my ward round. It was awful! They all sat there and said that my not talking, self harm, not being able to eat, and what hurt most of all, my 'suicidal threats' are attention seeking...

(If you haven't read my last journal entry, please read before this one) I met with my key worker today and completely broke down again. I explained how I was feeling but I've more or less had the...

I feel so deperate. Why wont the people at the clinic (including my tharapist) listen when I tell them I have suicidal thoughts!? Well, they listen, but I don't think they care. I thought my...

I had a Ward Round today (meeting with the team at the hospital) they've told me they're discharging me from Daypatients in May because it's not working. They want me to start tailing my days off per...

I'm sorry I haven't posted here for a while. I don't really know what to post. This is a support board for people wanting support and I just don't feel that way anymore.I don't WANT anything anymore....

Been holding it together again all day. Things getting more and more overwhelming the longer I hold it all in...and then 'crack!'I was about to leave to go home after day patients today and felt like...