It didn't work... I obviously didn't have enough. Either that or my meds really ARE a placebo like I feared. I don't remember falling asleep after cutting again but I must have done. Woke up earlier this morning.Anyway, just wanted to let you know that unfortunately I'm still around and now I don't have any meds left to try again for a while. I feel so upset at the moment. I so wanted it to be enough. I knew it wouldn't be for a 'normal' person but I just hoped that because I'm anorexic and really underweight at the moment it would effect me more. I don't know what else to say. I just want to cry.I don't know if any of you even want to speak to me after knowing I still went ahead last night but I just wanted to say that even though your words couldn't stop me from wanting to do it, you really helped me get this far and I love you all for it.
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*hugs* i know it\'s hard, life can really suck and be unfair at times, but there is another side, life can be great. please try and get some help XOX
(((hugs))))
Sweetie I understand things are hard. I have been in the same boat as you. Look to the bright side of the future because things will cheer up!
If you need someone to talk to, I\'m always here for you hun!
I\'m sorry that we could not prevent your attempt. Please, I beg you, get help fast! You are reaching out but it may not be enough. If I were with you I would hug you and hold you so that you would be safe. But I\'m not there physically but I am here virtually. Keep holding on and reaching out. You are in a crisis situation. Ask for help!
Cry if it helps, write if it helps, draw if it helps, listen to music if it helps. Anything that helps is worth trying. Sadly no-one can stop you feeling like this but if talking and writing helps people will listen
Hope you will rethink your suicidal plan now that Lauren is gone and everybody is sad and in shock.
sweetie i know i cannot say anything to change ur mind...so im not gonna...i think u need to reach out to someone....a therapist...a friend...a relative...a neighbor...somebody....cuz hun...when ur gone ur gone....no more laughing...no more pleasure...no more learning...no more anything