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What a suprise... they don't think re-admitting me will be "in my best interests". So depsite me feeling and looking like death, and if they bothered to listen to my Mum, hearing that all my vital...

It's my Ward Round tomorrow. My Mum is going to push for me to be re-admitted. I'm not eating except 1 tiny portion at lunch to tied me over. Totalling no more than 150-200 calories for the whole...

I feel ill again, weak, tired and keep getting headaches.  Since Friday I've only had drinks and yesterday I managed a weightwatchers yogurt in the evening which gave me a total of about 150...

Please, I'm in tears! I feel like ripping my hair out, cutting, smashing my fist through a window, ANYTHING but living the way I am at the moment!!! Does anyone relate to this? If you do please help...

Due for an update. I do still come on here but I haven't been posting. 1) I don't feel I deserve help at the moment and 2) I can't offer any help when I'm not helping myself. I don't even know how to...

Someone please, if you can see a link, connection, reason what ever you want to call it for the way I'm feeling now, please enlighten me.So it was the family meal tonight. Been feeling pretty good...

I have stuck to my meal plan. I missed my chocolate bar for afternoon snack as I binged. I had plenty to cover me for that so I just had a drink in the afternoon but I continued to have what I was...

So after posting my thread 'Circles' on here yesterday I decided to try again with the food. I talked to my Mum so she knew I wanted to try again too. I had the food I would have had at day patients...

I'm sure a lot of you will identify with this, but I just feel like I'm going in circles. Stage 1: When I was doing what I needed to do with the food and putting on the weight I ended up so depressed...

Sigh...So come April 6th I'll be cutting my second day down from Day Patients. Which will be a Tuesday now. I was going to be starting an Art course for the Wednesday that I have off at the moment...

I've dropped out a lot of the groups I was doing whilst in day patients. They're not compulsary but I always used to go. I stopped going when the depression was really bad and now I just don't want...

Horrible therapy session yesterday. But I got home, made the decision that I HAD to make some changes. Told my Mum that I needed more support with food. Had a full dinner AND pudding like I'm...

and today he's lost his job...what next? WHAT NEXT!?There is WAY too much fucking drama going on in this family at the moment. How the hell am I supposed to even TRY and think of making the changes I...

Well that's it...I told my Mum about the whole POVA business if the bf moved in yesterday.....he's moved in today....don't really know what else to say to be honest.

Oh god! This just get's worse!!!I spoke to my therapist briefly today (proper appointment is tomorrow) and the procedure is they will have to contact my CMHT who will then have to 'assess' my...