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(If you haven't read my last journal entry, please read before this one) I met with my key worker today and completely broke down again. I explained how I was feeling but I've more or less had the...

I feel so deperate. Why wont the people at the clinic (including my tharapist) listen when I tell them I have suicidal thoughts!? Well, they listen, but I don't think they care. I thought my...

I had a Ward Round today (meeting with the team at the hospital) they've told me they're discharging me from Daypatients in May because it's not working. They want me to start tailing my days off per...

I'm sorry I haven't posted here for a while. I don't really know what to post. This is a support board for people wanting support and I just don't feel that way anymore.I don't WANT anything anymore....

So here I am again after being so happy over the last couple of days, back in the depths of despair. I feel so... i don't even know what words could describe it. I'm so tired of it all, physically...

I can say for the first time in ages I actually feel happy today. I had a lovely time at the stables today. Was with a white pony called Tess. She was beautiful. I groomed her, lifter her legs and...

Been here for 6 weeks now. I'm slowly getting more and more 'good' days. It's taken a long time again and some more changes of medication. I'm still up and down and seem to have no control over the...

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Another update...missed yesterday though, did ok.

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I ate fish and chips :(. Guilt guilt guilt!

I'm out of hospital now (General) and been put on loads of medication which in turn has made me put on LOADS of weight. At first I was so depressed that I just didn't care, but now i've been...

Just to let anyone here know. I was taken into a psch ward on Monday so I wont be on for a while. Thanks to everyone who sent me messages.x-Bliss-x

Vodka, Benadryl, Paracetamol and Methadone...Tomorrow I say goodbye to this world and all it's pain and suffering.x-Bliss-x