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Well it's been a while since I wrote a poem and I've just finished this one so I thought i'd post it in my journal. Please be aware though it contains the subject of suicide and so may be triggering...

I know i've said this over and over, but I feel like everything is falling apart again. I don't know how to cope anymore and all I can think about is I don't want to be here. It's the only way I can...

Today has been a lovely day. It was David’s birthday and everyone has gone to bed tonight, content and happy with their day. So why have I just spent the past hour crying? Why as I lay down in bed...

I dont really know how to feel right now. This morning I started my period again for the first time since I've been ill. It's been aout 2 years and it's really freaked me out. I just keep thinking -...

Well things with my meal plan are going much better since I started again. I'm doing the same plan I was doing before only I admit I've stuck with the lower calorie meals. It's helping me cope just...

I keep swinging from eating everything I'm supposed to in the day, the six meals a day (ED unit schedule) - to freaking out about it and hardly eating at all. It's really bad and I'm finding it hard...

What have I done!!! I was so depressed and then suddenly I had a sudden lift in my mood which prompted me to confess to my Mum how I'd managed to lose weight again despite me 'having my meals' (I'd...

This is quite hard to write. I've only just recently came out of ip (23rd Dec) and already I want to restrict like hell again. But I'm in total despair at the moment because even though I REALLY want...

For those who know me, have been friends with me and have supported me and followed my journal. I just want to let you know that the decision has been made to re-admit me into the Eating Disorder...

Well they've given me this week to see if my weight will stabilise. I have therapy again on Friday so I'll be weighed then and see how things are going. If I'm still losing at the rate I am at the...

So things are set now for my Nan's funeral. It's going to be on Thursday. Flowers are chosen, wreath is chosen, songs are chosen, and words for the note on the flowers.Everything just feels so......

Sadly yesterday my Nan passed away so I may not be on here and active as much at for a while. Sorry.x-Bliss-x

I have therapy tomorrow and I'm really not looking forward to it. I'm going to have to go in and say that I haven't been to work at all this week. I'm supposed to be going in in the mornings for 4...

Helped my Brother take some stuff to his new place yesterday. It's a lot bigger than I expected! And bigger than he remembered too :) I was really pleased for him. It looks great. It's accomodation...

Blahhh... I hate colds.In bed at the moment with only my tv and laptop and DS to keep me company. HEY! That's a pretty good deal actually  Getting nervous about tomorrow and the weekend now. My...