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I'm starting to feel really out of control but I'm too stubborn to go to the hospital.  

I'm having a lot of trouble sleeping again.  I can't fall or stay asleep.  When I try to fall asleep all I can think about is how much I hate myself and that I should kill myself or cut myself....

I feel like I have gone back to how I was before I ever went to therapy. I am having hard core food issues and feel really depressed.  I almost feel like the past three years have been wasted.  I...

I just stole my roommates scissors to cut myself.  Im scared that this is getting out of hand.

I'm sick of this.  I just want to give up.  

I forgot what it felt like to hate yourself. I'm too ugly to go out in the world. I can't look people in the eye. I hate myself for eating. I just want to sleep.

I gained weight. This is not okay. I cant think I can't breath. Why did this happen??? no no no no no no non nonoonono. this can't be happeningnonoI can't have gained weight. This is not acceptable....

I think my new meds are starting to work :-)

I'm really sick of shitty days.

since im inbetween drugs I have no energy and no motivation. All I want to do is sleep. It is making doing my school work very difficult. I'm also starting to hate my body again. I kind of feel like...

I just found out I was emotionally abused by my mother pretty much my whole life but it was at its peak four years ago. I realize the label doesn't change that it happened....but I really am not...

I really miss my dance studio. So much so it hurts.

I'm doing better this week. I am under alot of stress at school and have been handling it pretty well. I hope I do okay on my midterms. I'm really excited to go home this weekend and see all of my...

I cut pretty badly. I didn't even try to stop myself. What is wrong with me?

I feel really alone right now.