I'm having a lot of trouble sleeping again.  I can't fall or stay asleep.  When I try to fall asleep all I can think about is how much I hate myself and that I should kill myself or cut myself.  It makes it very hard to calm down enough to fall asleep.  I am getting very frustrated with everything. I also think I am getting sick again.  I just got over strep throat.  Why is everything falling apart?  I don't understand why I have to go through all of this.  If I ended it all then I could finally have peace. I just don't know what to do anymore.