Alliegator

I'm in really bad shape.  I don't know how this happened.  all of the sudden...deep depression.

I just got a job at Victoria's Secret for the summer!!!!

I miss my anorexia again.  Sometimes I wish I could just go back to that rather than depression.  It really wasn't any easier and I was definitely depressed while I was anorexic but at least it...

Vacations are so weird.  I have a lot of trouble realizing that they are real life.  I always feel like I put real life on hold and I'm just floating somewhere in a sort of alternate universe....

I don't know who I am anymore.  I am so confused.  Is this who I am without depression?  Or am I turning into someone new?  Am I a good person?  Do I like who I am? I really hope so. 

I just bawled my eyes out after a One Tree HIll episode.  It hurts for me to watch daughters getting along with their moms and having a close relationship.  I really want that in my life but I know...

Movies always make me cry.  Not for the reason most people cry: the plot is sad.  Rather for me every time I see a character experience pain it makes me think of my pain.  When I see a happy...

I'm currently sitting in my common room at my dorm with my friends.  I am able to detach myself from the situation I am in and I realize how I have so much pain and anguish inside me but I use the...

My thoughts and moods are so all over the place I can't even figure them out anymore.  I kind of feel like my body is defecting and falling apart inside.  I'm worried that I may be going crazy. I...

I have been having the urge lately to do something I am not supposed to do.  I have wanted to cut but I told myself that if I didn't cut for a year I would get a tattoo (something I have wanted for...

So today I woke up happy for the first time in along time.  Usually I wake up numb with a sense of dread of having to go through another day.  Today was different!  I actually feel happy and not...

I hate that at the end of the day when I'm getting ready for bed I always review my day and worry about if I have made an ass out of myself.  I end up regretting things I've said or done.  I know...

I really wish that I was pretty.