Alliegator

I have so much I need to get out.  Its all about my mother.  I think if I try to type it I will just explode because I can't type fast enough.  I need to talk.  The one guy I usually call to talk...

I don't really know how I am feeling at the moment.  I was very happy all day but now I don't know.  I am so _____ something....I just wish my relationship with my mother was better. I wish she...

I finally made it into the happy smiley faces again.  Its been such a long time.  

I miss my eating disorder a lot right now. I'm sick of using cutting as a way of coping with everything going on in my head. I liked being anorexic better. I wish I still had the self...

I just cut myself again.  I'm not supposed to.  I told a lot of people that I wouldn't do it.  I just want to shred myself to bits.  I hate myself I hate my life.  I can't be angry at people....

I just tried acupuncture for the first time.  So not okay with me.  First of all it hurt, but the pain was manageable.  The idea of needles being stuck in me and not being able to move for fear...

I'm terrified that I gained weight.  I just want to be thin.  I'm not thin enough yet.  I need to diet but I don't want things to get out of hand again.  I just feel gross when I look at my fat.

I don't understand myself sometimes.  I feel happy and good but then part of me defects and all I want to do is push the negative thoughts away.  The first way I try to deal is I think about...

I hate being home for break.  I don't like living with my parents.  I don't even feel like I belong in my own house anymore.  My mother is so annoying.  I don't know how I am going to make it...

I'm so frustrated that I can't fall asleep before 3 o'clock in the morning.  I wish I could just go to bed and be asleep within 15 minutes like you are supposed to.  My whole Life it has taken me...

There is this life that I want.  I can't describe it but I have this image of it in my head and I want to achieve it so so badly.  I can't really put it into words but I am just frustrated...

I'm feeling better today...not quite as suicidal.  I actually kind of feel like I died a little inside.  Its a very weird feeling...I hope I can get back to normal soon.

I'm still feeling suicidal.  I'm starting to think I need to go to the hospital but I'm too scared.  I don't think I can trust myself anymore.

I don't really know how to explain how I'm feeling.  I feel frustrated, sad, angry, hopeless and restless.  I just want all of this to go away.  I don't want to have to deal with life anymore.  I...