Alliegator

I feel like crap.  This being positive thing is really hard to do for this long.  I want to give up.  I'm not going to, but I want to.  I have to go to the psychologist tomorrow.  I really don't...

Therapists always ask me about my relationship with my parents when they do intakes.  That always starts an interesting conversation.  I simplify the truth with "my mom and I don't get along."...

I realized that I don't actually want to commit suicide.  I just want to change my life.  I can't live like this anymore...but that doesn't mean I need to stop living.  I am going to call my...

Well I was suicidal again this morning.  I called a crisis hotline before I went through with anything.  I wish I had the guts to just go through with it.  My damn conscience always gets in the...

I just want to be thin. I want all of this to go away.  I want to get drunk and forget everything happening to me.  I hate my body and I hate all of the hate I have for myself.  I feel so angry....

I'm scared that the reason I have been so depressed and haven't been enjoying college lately is that its not the right place for me.  I don't think I can handle 3 more years of undergrad, 6 yrs of...

things are falling apart.  Not just mentally but physically as well. I can't handle this.  I just want to be healthy and happy.  Why is that so impossible?

I slipped up and cut once but I know that everyone makes mistakes.

I am a mess.  I can't focus.  I have no motivation to do anything. I feel like my friends are deserting me and don't really understand or care to understand what I'm going through.  What I thought...

Ugh.  I have absolutely no motivation to do anything. I have hardly accomplished any homework at all in the past two weeks.  I just keep procrastinating until the last possible second and then half...

I just cut myself quite badly.  So much for going a year without cutting.  I guess one slip up isn't too bad. I have been having a really hard time lately. I have slipped into a deep, angry, fitful...

I think I just had some sort of psychotic break.  I really have no idea how to describe what just happened.  I felt legitimately crazy.  I never want that to happen again.  I am so scared of...

I have been so depressed lately.  I just want these horrible thoughts to stop.  I hate myself.  I feel bad for everyone who has to deal with me.

I still haven't cut!  It has been over 3 months.  I am so proud of myself.