I am a mess. I can't focus. I have no motivation to do anything. I feel like my friends are deserting me and don't really understand or care to understand what I'm going through. What I thought was a solid support system dwindled to to people over the span of 3 days. I need to get out of my dorm. I am so sick of being around the same people in the same place. Unfortunately the rest of campus isn't much better. I just need to get away for a few days. I can't be here anymore. It scares me to admit this but I don't know if I can handle college. I feel like I am just barely scraping by. I do the smallest amount of work possible in my classes and I have to force myself to go to lecture or complete an assignment. I have friends but I don't really try that hard to make new ones. All of my college friends are basically just the people I met on my floor or who are friends of people on my floor. I'm starting to not want to be in college anymore. I don't know what I would do with my life though. Psychology has been my biggest interest and I still love it but there is so much extraneous stuff I have to go through until I can get to the point in my life were I am a practicing psychologist and honestly I don't know if its worth it. I'm tired of feeling like every day takes forever to get through. I am tired of being bored and restless. I want to feel like I am being productive. All I ever do is hang around or do school work but I don't have the energy to get involved in anything else. I feel stuck. I don't know how much longer I can keep up with all of this. Maybe college isn't right for me or maybe this isn't the right college but I feel like I don't have any options. Not going to college doesn't really even seem like an option. What would I do with my life? And changing schools.....I really don't think I could handle that process again. I feel so lost and confused.
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Maybe you should go somewhere outside of the school and think. Think about how you feel outside of the school versus inside. Do you feel more comfortable when you are off campus because if you do, maybe it isn\'t the right school for you. And it\'s okay to be lost and confused. And don\'t worry, I\'m always here if you need anything.
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What do you do outside of your classes other than homework? I know this may be weird but join a bowling league......its once a week and it get you away, you meet people from different teams every week, and it is fun.
The whole idea of motivation is a trap. Forget motivation. Just do it. Exercise, lose weight, test your blood sugar, or whatever. Do it without motivation. And then, guess what? After you start doing the thing, that\'s when the motivation comes and makes it easy for you to keep on doing it. John C. Maxwell