Andelene

Lately it feels as if I've been abandoned alone in a huge desert full of nothing but pain and heartache. I experience the pain of Colleen's passing for the first time now. For 6 months I was numb,...

It is 6 months now since my beautiful Colleen got her wings. My son is making arrangements for me to go and live with him (about 2 1/2 hours' drive from here). And I feel sick!I'm grateful to be...

I believe that our Lord placed Colleen in my care, to love her and take very good care of her, until He came back to take her HOME again. And I did just that, to the best of my ability. I made many...

This past Monday my older daughter, Melany, got an abses in her mouth again. That night she couldn't sleep, due to the pain, so she lay on the couch and watched TV. At about 2:30 am she went to the...

Christmas is over. Now it's only the new year that lies ahead. That is why I started making Colleen's "wall of rememberance" yesterday. I want to enlarge her memory, to take it all with me into the...

The sick old lady, whom I helped for the past 2 weeks, has passed away peacefully yesterday. I am grateful that she has finally been freed from her painful suffering. Now she is in heaven, with my...

I started my first shift on Friday evening, 6 pm. The sick old lady was much weaker than when I saw her 2 days ago. She had contracted a tummy virus, and had severe diarrhea. Also her blood pressure...

I have been so blessed! I was approached by a lady who knew about me and Colleen, and asked if I would help her and her sister take care of their sick and very fragile mother. I immediately accepted!...

Since Colleen's passing, I've been receiving small bird feathers from her. At first I hesitated about the idea, but then she sent me one very special feather! When I looked at it, I got the message...

I had a scary week, and through it I realized that my two living children still need me. My sweet Colleen is in heaven now, with Jesus, and I need to focus more on my living children. My older...

My visit to my mom, with my 2 granddaughters, went well. The 2 kids enjoyed themselves, and our visit meant a lot to my mom. But now I feel completely drained! The one thing I discovered there, is...

Our schools close tomorrow for a 10 days holiday, before their final exams start for this year. So I decided to go and visit my mom, with my 2 granddaughters. Our summer just started, so I think the...

Today I just needed to talk to someone, anyone, but everybody was too busy (as usual) with their own lives. I understand that, but not one of my family or friends can understand that I sometimes just...

Blue Mondays stopped affecting me years ago, when I stopped working. But yesterday I had a great Blue Monday! On Sunday, after I visited Colleen's grave, I accidentally locked the keys in the car. We...

It has been 6 weeks since Colleen passed away. I couldn't feel, until now. I'm waking up at night from Colleen talking to me, only to realize that I'm alone in my room. Each time, just as I wake up,...