Andelene

Two years ago, when my precious Colleen passed, my emotions died with her, at that very moment when she took her last breath in this life. I felt nothing, for 2 whole years. Only my body and my mind...

I just turned into a horrible person, so it is best that I keep my big mouth shut and stay away from society.  What I don't understand, is how some people are placed on a pedestal because the whole...

Today, 2 years ago, my precious Colleen left this horrible world. I wonder if she remembers me, if she thinks about me, if she still knows how much I love her and miss her........!But today, in this...

My mom's boyfriend passed away this past week, and was buried on Friday. I met him a few times, quite a friendly person. He was 94, so it was his time to go. The thing is that I have absolutely no...

I am still discovering the unexpected and illogical up's and downs on my path of grief. Yesterday was my late husband's birthday. He died 8 years ago, and I felt a huge relief when he passed. I...

I have always been able to handle stressful and crisis situations in a very calm and logical manner. But not anymore!!Melany was finally discharged from hospital yesterday. Great news, but it was a...

My daughter, Melany, is very brave! She got severe infection, and it spread through her whole body. She got high fever, nausea and headaches. Her wound started oozing a lot. For some reason they...

My daughter, Melany's surgery went well! They removed all the growths and masses, and now she's on her way to a helthy life! I thank God for his devine mercy!!My mom came to see Melany, and to...

The time has finally come for my older daughter to have her historectomy!  I am so grateful, but also physically sick. At last all the masses and growths will be removed, and her whole body can...

I am trying to understand the purpose of my life. I don't have much money, posessions, or any status at all. Looking back, I battled through 23 very difficult years, just to end up with nothing!! I...

This morning I found 3 circles, made by snails, just outside our front door. This is definitely Colleen's way of saying "Thank you" for thinking of her yesterday, on her 2 nd bbirthday in heaven!...

The past 2 nights Colleen visited me in my dreams, for the first time!! She is a lovely little girl, healthy and normal, and she was happily running around, laughing and playing! Last night she...

I have been so deeply depressed for a long time now. Medication doesn't help much. My place used to be with my sweet Colleen, but that place is no more. I am living with my son now, and he is really...

My older daughter, Melany, is still waiting for her operation. And her pain is getting worse by the day! The growths are still growing larger, and I honestly fear that she could die from this!Because...

We got the results of my ddaughter's blood tests today, and there are no indications of any cancer cells! I thank God for His mercy and grace!!They did more tests today, which showed that she has...