Andelene

My older daughter, Melany, finally had a scan today. She does not have medical Iinsurance, and the State medical facilities in South Africa are pathetic!The scan clearly showed that Melany has cysts...

I just can't get rid of this deep depressing sadness. I wake up feeling this overwhelming sadness, and it stays with me until I go to bed again. I tried to make sense of my emotions. Colleen had...

On Wednesday I walked to the dairy to buy milk, as usual. The owner of the shop asked me  if I was interested to help them in the shop, working mornings only (from 8 am to 1 pm). I accepted, without...

While Colleen was still alive, my life had meaning and purpose. Now I battle to get out of this deep hole of depression. I have decided to honor Colleen's life through my way of living, but I'm still...

I have been thinking a lot about my life without Colleen, and I realized one huge truth: I'm a better person, because of Colleen! She taught me the depths of unconditional love and caring. I learnt...

Dear friends of my daughter, Melany, is going through a horrible time. Their only son, 15, is in ICU after a bad virus caused his bowls to burst open and die off. He had 4 major operations within a...

Today I'm just venting, trying to make sense of it all. Since my daughter, Melany's attempted suicide, I'm back to crying and withdrawing myself from life. I don't want to feel or care anymore! I'm...

Melany is o.k, and all is better again! My son Gareth sorted it all out. Little Lee-Ann has not been taken away, and Gareth now pays for her to attend after school classes. Melany is receiving help...

My daughter, Melany, had a complete break down yesterday, and tried to commit suicide. She's in hospital now, and is doing o.k. Her little girl, Lee-Ann, witnessed it all, and is severely...

I am so blessed here with my son! He takes care of all the responsibilities, while I do the house keeping. No more battling with daily struggles for me! I thank God for blessing me so abundantly!My...

After 2 weeks of deep depression, I finally feel at home in my new environment. The apartment is small but cosy, and my son and his step-cousin are wonderful people! Of course it is just me to mean...

This past weekend was total chaos! My daughter Melany and I both moved, to different places. Melany and little lee-Ann moved to a small apartment, and I moved to my son in a different town. Our...

The time is getting closer for me to move to my son. Although I'm looking forward to it, I also feel devastated to leave my daughter, Melany, alone. She is moving to a very small apartment, in a...

Yesterday was my sweet angel Colleen's first birthday in heaven. I made some cup cakes, and took pictures of Colleen's photo with one cup cake and a burning candle on it. The whole day my emotions...

Thankfully the numbness kicked in again, and I'm just floating along with life once more. I started painting again, for the first time since my sweet Colleen has left. It is more difficult than I...