My crazy mind and emotions.
My older daughter, Melany, is still waiting for her operation. And her pain is getting worse by the day! The growths are still growing larger, and I honestly fear that she could die from this!
Because she has no medical insurance, she has to go to a state hospital. And our state hospitals are chaotic!!! No money for proper medicines, or pay proper docters and nurses! A large amount of state hospitals are almost bancrupt. And nobody cares!!!!
This morning I thank God for rescuing my beautiful Colleen from all this chaos!! I see us as ship wrecked people, desperately struggling to survive in this huge ocean of chaos and self centred authorities! God reached down and rescued my beautiful Colleen from this earthly hell, and now she is safe, happy and perfect forever with Jesus!
I don't want to say goodbye to another child!! And little Lee-Ann needs her mommy!!! Maybe I'm just going insane and crazy. Lately I am taking medication to keep me calm, but that doesn't stop these migrains.
I know that God is forever in control, and eventually He will rescue all of us. But until then, I need the strength and wisdom to carry on!! I cannot wait for my turn to say:"Goodbye forever, cruel world!!!".
Because she has no medical insurance, she has to go to a state hospital. And our state hospitals are chaotic!!! No money for proper medicines, or pay proper docters and nurses! A large amount of state hospitals are almost bancrupt. And nobody cares!!!!
This morning I thank God for rescuing my beautiful Colleen from all this chaos!! I see us as ship wrecked people, desperately struggling to survive in this huge ocean of chaos and self centred authorities! God reached down and rescued my beautiful Colleen from this earthly hell, and now she is safe, happy and perfect forever with Jesus!
I don't want to say goodbye to another child!! And little Lee-Ann needs her mommy!!! Maybe I'm just going insane and crazy. Lately I am taking medication to keep me calm, but that doesn't stop these migrains.
I know that God is forever in control, and eventually He will rescue all of us. But until then, I need the strength and wisdom to carry on!! I cannot wait for my turn to say:"Goodbye forever, cruel world!!!".
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so sorry for all you are going through,, I send my love and prayers....
I\'m so sorry. My prayers and LOVE for you and Melany and Lee-Ann.
I really hope that she is seen soon...and get her operation done quickly and safely! I cannot imagine how awful it is not to be able to have your daughter cared for...love and gentle hugs...Karen
I\'m reaching out to give you a hug. I understand the complete feeling of helplessness and anger and overwhelming feeling of going crazy! I will keep Melony in my thoughts and wish you a moment of peace, my friend.
(((hugs))) Merrilee
It is so difficult to WAIT and be under the control of others when we just want some control because we know we could take care of it!!! I find myself in the waiting room alot - God\'s timing certainly isn\'t our timing but HIS timing is perfect - I hear your fears, frustration, and craziness we have with our thoughts. I will pray for peace for you and that medical care happens quickly for your daughter.
Sending the tightest of hugs to you this very moment. Vicki
My thoughts and prayers are with each of you. Oh, the waiting has to feel like an eternity and I know how important it is for Melany to receive this surgery as soon as possible. Deepest of sighs...
With you and caring,
Heartfelt (((hugs)))
XO Joanie
Hoping for a speedy answer to Melany\'s situation. Peace, Kathy
You and your daughter are in my thoughts and prayers. Sending best wishes your way and lots of love (((Hugs)))Maria
Oh my dear. How did I miss this journal? I hope Melanie has had her surgery and is recovering. Praying.
Love and tight hugs.
Marlene