At last, my daughter's surgery!
The time has finally come for my older daughter to have her historectomy! I am so grateful, but also physically sick. At last all the masses and growths will be removed, and her whole body can start to get healthy again!
I started feeling very sick, (nausea, anxiety attacks and migrains) a week ago. Also little things can make me cry my heart out. Trying to stay strong, only cause me to become irritated and aggressive, and loose my self control completely. I feel angry at the whole world! Melany's hospitalization brought back my Colleen's final 3 weeks in hospital. Will I loose another child? Colleen was also "fine" when she was admitted to hospital, - we were together, I spoke to her and touched her, made her comfortable, hardly ever left her side, ........! Now Melany is in hospital. They will operate tomorrow (Wednesday). I just feel so very sick!!!
I started feeling very sick, (nausea, anxiety attacks and migrains) a week ago. Also little things can make me cry my heart out. Trying to stay strong, only cause me to become irritated and aggressive, and loose my self control completely. I feel angry at the whole world! Melany's hospitalization brought back my Colleen's final 3 weeks in hospital. Will I loose another child? Colleen was also "fine" when she was admitted to hospital, - we were together, I spoke to her and touched her, made her comfortable, hardly ever left her side, ........! Now Melany is in hospital. They will operate tomorrow (Wednesday). I just feel so very sick!!!
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I am saying prayers that Melany will do super and that you will find comfort and strength. Hugs Elissa
Praying for healing for Melany and peace and comfort for you.
I am thinking of you and dear Melany and so very hopeful.
Please keep us posted as you are able and take care of yourself. Of course you are worried sick dear friend as this triggers too many fresh wounds concerning Colleen. Please trust that all will go well and see her whole and healed. This helps me so much if I can go to that place of seeing it as \"so\" when I\'m anxious and worried. Easier said than done, I know...
Love and the tightest of heartfelt (((hugs)))
XO Joanie
Lots of love and prayers being sent to you, my friend! When was six years old, my mother was in the hospital and almost died. Many years later, my father could not visit me in the hospital after I had my sons because of the trauma during my mom\'s illness. Through them I can almost understand what you must be going through. I know after loss, the fear of losing another loss is incredibly frightening. Please take time to take care of you because you are important too!
Sending love and prayers,
Leda
Prayers being said for Melany & YOU. Remember to breathe because it is the only thing we are able to do sometimes. (((hugs)))) Vicki
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Hugs. Praying that all goes well today. I understand the fear and pain of having a loved one in the hospital. When Joe was in ICU, I was terrified that I would lose him too.
Breathe; slow, deep breaths.
Love and tight hugs
Marlene