F-Wording

As I await the next evolution in the Breach of Contract litigation, the contemplation of Formal Legal Breach of Contract Forgiveness continues to bring flashbacks to every Isimator who ever passed through the kiddie whorehouse dramas, as well as brothers and sisters-in-healing who ricocheted into psychotic episode at the mention of the word. The party/water cooler/social media debates are in there, as well, but I count it as progress that I am able to relegate those to background noise. Just traffic hum on a busy highway. Unlike assholes, everybody has more than one opinion. Zoom on through the gridlock, my friend. Honk, if you must.

The contractor who took my money and ran for the safety of evasive manuevers isnae very high on the list of players in this macabre puppet show ripping through my head. The Isimators -both pro and con- who populated the kiddie whorehouse dramas of my youth had the word-power to bash a child's faith in ice cream. A child's faith in self? ? ? Let you give me *MY* list, child. Trust me. I have ^it^ on good authority from an owner of the truth. I sure did/do need *something* to get me through the days when all physical evidence indicates that NONE of this is okay. No, I don't want to Isimate over ^it^. Please let me puzzle as a broken child. Don't bother with directions, Ma'am/Sir. I can find the nearest watershed on my own.

For the most part, moving between the various religious/anti dialects isnae a big problem for me. I am a multi-lingual wanderer, after all. When in Buhddism, speak as a Buhddist. I had moved between more dialects than I could count before I dropped out of my fifth High School and started my strictly personal international flight pattern. 3 continents later, moving between dialects is as natural for me than defending their own dialect is for a Townie.

"Forgiveness" just might be the toughest concept on the Ismic Debate list to translate between dialects. This morning finds me grappling anew with less volatile words to use for the discussion. Again I ponder the published synonyms. "Pardon, absolution, exoneration, remission, dispensation, indulgence, clemency, mercy, reprieve, amnesty, shrift. . ." I certainly don't want any of those words on the Headline of the legal document I hope my newly hired lawyer is currently drafting.

Sorting. . .

Appetite sketchy, but I am remembering to eat. Sleep restless but adequate. No dog shit in front of the still running tower garden this morning. Guit-chi is rocking. Angel kisses galore. I feel like I am in the best of company when those angel kisses are trilling up and down my nervous system. Gratitude to K for listening so patiently during yesterday's lunch. I don't believe my manic broadcasting cost me the still budding friendship, but. . . Small steps, big F-words and lots of prayer, by whatever name.