The trip
Being with the aunts is teaching me a lot.I’m looking forward to getting back to my life but it’s been fun and nice.
Yet after I wrote the above I had a negative experience with them and now I’m so ready to get out of here.I told them about my illness that I managing well and been working 12 years at the market. Aunt M responded ‘everyone has anxiety and you just need to overcome.' know it sounds extreme wanting to escape from here now. But suffice it to say I’m looking forward to seeing Blue. And getting back to Maryland.They had been talking last night about me and what I was doing while I was in the other room.And I just have to believe we are all making our way in the world. Their take is to put down.Maybe that’s not fair. But they’re just old. I am ready to go back. And it’s a risk to open up. I felt uneasy at that time and I wanted to be understood but not everyone can. I am ok, it’s ok.
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This was written last night. Things are better. No problems. I feel competent to go from one social group to another I understand and not one and nobody’s perfect.
(((((Marcos))))))
Hola :) I was wondering where you were lately & then remembered you said you were going to Florida. Anyways, for what it’s worth I’m always proud of you … like for real for real.
I bet Blue’s like “umm where the heck is Marcos!” lol :) it will be so great to see him. I love cats (well all animals) because they don’t say some of the crazy stuff humans say that make us doubt ourselves when there’s probs no reason to be in the first place.
Sending lots of support, hope & love
Big hugs <3
Here's to keeping the visit as just that. Enjoy the pleasant moments, and the rest is just their stuff. Enjoy your reunion with Blue.
Big hug sweetie
I think a lot of it comes down to ignorance
They just don't know better
Years ago I was giving a talk on bipolar and a mother was responding how mad her son would get with her because she would say 'just go and take a walk in the sun'
He was in the depths of dispair and couldn't fuction
She was very receptive fortunately
It took courage
Im glad today is better
Blue will be so happy to see dsd
Big hug...xo
Thanks you guys!!
Happy to see a journal from you....was wondering where you were! It's good to get away and wonderful to find your way back to your own space! Good On You for letting go of other's challenging opinions...sorry Mark, but they don't have a clue <3
Thanks Mary Louise!!
I was wondering where you were. I'm glad you were able to let their ignorance go and not let it bother you. Blue will be happy to see you, I'm sure! Was it nice to be in the warm weather?
I can’t wait to see Blue!! Yes it was so nice to be in the sun and be warm!! Thanks Becky!!