Curious about the world but…

I'm curious about the world but I've got to hold down 'my fort' still. 
I used to question so expansively and enthusiastically but I know now I also need to keep focused and take care of my life as well. I want to reach out for support and consolation, a fear of going it alone, but I realize this is part of my pattern and also is something manageable. It's a sign of what I'm feeling and I've got to relax and keep on keeping on.

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malibumark
malibumark

Also I I have too much time on my hands, like now while I wait for my car to be serviced, I start to look for busy work, productive type engine, but if I don’t have it then I drill down and go a. Little crazy.
malibumark
malibumark

When I have a hard time organizing my time and keeping myself responsibly focused and occupied, I am starting to ask myself if anyone else has a hard time with this.
arfie
arfie

i'm curious about the world, but. . .

so much world and so little time. . .
malibumark
malibumark

:-) agreed Arfie
malibumark
malibumark

I’m also realizing that I kind of go for global visions or explanations to my life when I’m not fully occupied. And then too I’ll got for a kind of iconic expectation for how people should be there for me. Keep plodding forward, keep on keeping on and don’t go overboard excited or emotional, keep on keeping on deal with my circumstances clearly.
malibumark
malibumark

I got a major bill today for my car nearly $800 - ugh.
I felt like i can't get ahead - like I can't live this way- I am going to get a job
after Christmas... We're all in the same boat - my family and friends are in the life raft
with me all making life work. I know I am extremely lucky to be able to thinking about this stuff

I also listened to an interview on the tv while waiting for my car servicing.
This artist said she used her pain to fuel her writing - she did something with it
and I take inspiration from that!
Community LeaderSunCloudJD
SunCloudJD

An 800 dollar car bill is upsetting sweetie for most people

I'm sorry that it was so much

Using pain to fuel writing is a good idea...This sort of what you do in a more private way with your journals

Keep on keeping on is a great way to live

Big squishy hug...xo
malibumark
malibumark

Thanks Janet!
malibumark
malibumark

I find myself ever looking for ‘home’ and connection.
It seems the human condition.
I have that here on this site and the monastery and it seems I find it through contributing to meet the needs of each community.
malibumark
malibumark

Thanks you guys ((())hug)))))
Community LeaderSunCloudJD
SunCloudJD

Lovely positive words sweetie...xo
malibumark
malibumark

Thanks Jan!