EmmaammE

If i was to die i think i would like to die in my sleep and not know about it. I.....I......dont want to die but i have a massive urge to take all the laxatives i have in my draw. Ive just counted...

Just stop popping pills! I no im not fat, well not that fat anyway, but i feel like such a hefferlump! I feel bloated and fat and buldgy all the time. I dont want to eat but i feel hungry all the...

I want laxatives lots of laxatives bad!!!!

I need laxatives so badly im such a fat heffer after christmas! ive just read about how laxatives dont do anything good for you just harm and it really triggered me. I no they wont help me or make me...

I feel like a fat lardy today. cant wait to get back to normality.

I cant wait to get home on wednesday but at the same time i want to stay at home. I guess i have got throught christmas and new year because i have eaten not taken so much laxatives and behaved my...

Urm well im not sure about the whole progress thing but im eating and eating tones! i guess thats binging (oh dear) and laxatives overdoes last night i thought i was gona have to tell my mum coz i...

well ive given in. I figure its only 2weeks at home then i can go back and do as i please again so im eating and eating normally 3 times a day. I feel so full, fat and sick all the time and eating...

So im home at my mums now until the new year. Ive been home 1 day and although its nice not to have the stress of work and daily life its sooo very hard. My mum hasnt seen me since i first got sick...

Yuk i feel so fat and lardy

I am so peved off. I made brownies today for the various xmas parties im going to or doing for the young people and my house mates wanted to try them so i said they could when they had cooled down...

Ive eaten 42 lots of laxatives. Ive lost all control because i could quite easily eat more. Im trying so hard to eat but i just want to take more and more laxatives. Even if i get a note from my dr...

I thought i was fine this morning and went off to work but by the time i got there i was so ill in my stomach - ill spare you the details use your imagination from my last entry! Im still majorly...

ive had the crappiest day ever and im od-ing big time on laxatives. Im crying so much at the moment and hurt so bad and feel let down. i cant explain now.

I had my first appointment with a phyciatrist today. It was all going so well and he even said that i wasnt that ill. Then he asked me some more questions and before i knew it he was suggesting that...