I had my first appointment with a phyciatrist today. It was all going so well and he even said that i wasnt that ill. Then he asked me some more questions and before i knew it he was suggesting that i go to hospital or have home help. I dont want either!!! He sent me to sit in the waiting room while he talked it over with someone else and then called me back 20 minutes later. I was so scared. He said that he wanted to see me in a week or 2 so he let me go on the condition that i give up the laxatives and slimming pills and eat. I made no such promises but i escaped this time. Its not like im under weight or anything. Im not sure hospital is gona help in anyway. Im not sure about anything anymore. Im so tired so cold and just want this mess to be over. I want to sleep but have to go out to work in a bit and im struggling to keep awake.
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you know life can be so hard sometimes.you can have all the friends in the world sitting next to you and still feel lonelyi was always the first person to so no to help and still dont like taking it but sometimes you just have to ,to be able to move on.i hope one day soon you will be able to turn a corner.i think a lot of my friends on here and i hate the thought of you hurting.i hope you dont think i was havin a go earlier.i am ok got a chest infection at the mo but whats new,it comes every year in time for christmas.lovely.well you take care of yourself.anytime ya wanna chat just shout.thankyou for your hug all my love anthea xx
I know how you feel. Sometimes we feel as if we dont need help, but your doctor must be worried about you if he was suggesting you go to hospital. it doesnt matter if you\'re underweight or not-this is the worst thing about this disorder-physically you might look \'normal\' but you still have an ed. If you feel this exhausted and unhappy you will only get worse. Mayb you should try your doctor\'s suggestions? If not do you have anybody you could stay with or talk to that could support you? I felt exactly the same as you, but have definitely improved since i actually got help and admitted that i had a real problem.
dont need to be underweight to have a serious problem hun. losing so much weight so quickly is not healthy at all! take the doctors help and his advice before things get worse x